This is my life....

It's Time to Move On

2011-08-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, the tragic tale which took me to the down-est point in my life. the passing of my dad.

yes, if you were to ask me, i am still thinking about my dad and imagining his presence.

in life, you just got to move on. hence, i have decided to put a stop to this blog. starting up a new one. a new blog with me, writing on stuff from different perspective.

it's been a great time blogging, and trust me, i ain't stopping here.

till then people, find other blog to read.

Goodbye Pa

2010-08-29T21:40:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, financial crisis. i need to better manage my spending. getting so occupied with work somehow not helping me to save.

it's been emotional roller coaster ride once again. i've been busy the past weeks and sad to say, i lost my father 3 saturdays ago. i was shocked that time, stunned and don't really know what to do. gone too soon i supposed. so many more things i wanted to do with my father.

i know i will definitely miss him a lot.

don't worry pa, we will take good care of ourselves and the family. i know you want me to be strong to overcome all struggles in life. i will take your advice and will make me, mom, sis and bro all happy.

well, guess that's all for now. a short post on my hiatus. i am not going to cry now, instead will just ponder on how to live a successful life - now that my father had left us.

till then people, appreciate life & ponder on death.

He Works Hard For The Money

2010-08-14T00:28:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, i have finally gotten myself an internet connection. yes, i am back to the world wide web.

as usual, i now being over stressed by work. some told me that, the stress doesn't really mean anything whereas some, just like thinking that it is impacting our life. i am cloud in, trying to forget this other issue which is still clinging in my heart. already fallen too deeply, i just can't get myself to climb back up again. perhaps one day, when i am able to get back up, i know that's the time for me to move on.

work, work, work! nothing much other than those four-letter word. seriously, i am drained. mood-less and live-less. i got no life. at one certain point, i was fearing to go back to work. at one moment, just wanted to give. finally came to conclusion that i am paid to handle the stress.

letting people shout at me, being treated like an "employee", not getting the much needed guidance, surrounded by a pretender and so much more happening at my work place. indeed, an office drama anyone wished they are not in it.

i getting use to all these shits. scapegoat or hardworking horse, once again i believe in pure KARMA. i am at this point in re-evaluating my career path.

well, that's all for now. getting sleepy and will update soon.

till then, work with emotions.

Rekindle

2010-08-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, emotional roller-coaster. that's the best description on me for the past one month. it's crazy and a little psychotic. in a way it's not healthy and sort of bringing me into another dimension.

cryptic. i know! happy, the current state of my being. finally after so long, i am back online from the comfort of my bedroom. been dying to get back online so i can continue blogging once again.

things just the same in the cyber-world, only that a little catch up needs to be done. though been busy with work most of the time, somehow the gratification of online-ing from home is way much greater and perhaps different.

well, it's getting late now and i am feeling sleepy. will probably going to re-vamp this blog soon. so stay tuned for more. hopefully, more frequent updates coming soon. still need some time to get use to certain things.

till then, plan a or plan b. both have a goodnight!

Watch & Learn

2010-07-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, wanted something so badly till the forces of nature doesn't even know how to make it happen. can't blame mother nature for this but then, exclusive or organic just not happening yet.

a lot of things happened. i know it's been nearly a month and i apologize for not updating. i know i can update from my work place, but then there's just no inspiration though advertising agency supposed to be full of creative inspirations.

i've been up (up to heaven) and i've been down, all the way pulled down to earth. happy and sad, i have sort of gone through the different phases of it. now, what's left is for me to just sit back, hold back and ponder on this confusing matter that i am facing right now.

well, long story short..just wanted to say that i am doing alright. surviving, barely struggling. an experience which i will share perhaps in future.

till then people, hope i'll be posting more often soon.

Exclusive & Organic

2010-05-15T21:53:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, it's been so long till i can't really keep track on things which i have posted. work is a little crazy, but then i guess still can manage.

life got to be organic, in a way that you feel just at earth when doing things. i got couple of things to deal with at work and when i come back at home, i think of other things revolve around. trying not to "imagine" the problem, i usually come back quite late during weekdays. or at times i'll just quickly settle down and then just sleep. wake up again in the morning, thinking that problems will just go away.

it's been about a month now and friends who are with me, sort of know that i am working towards plan A and plan B. and how's that going to balance out, i don't really know. all i can say is that my focus is slightly on the A-game now. which i am playing along trying to make it really really exclusive. hope it will be rewarded soon in the future.

well, i guess that's all for now. life without the so called "technology" seems to drain away my passion for blogging. somehow, i have the feeling that i don't need it anymore. perhaps, my needs changed.

till then people, mother earth decides the faith.

One Month

2010-04-25T15:45:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, so many things happened lately and honestly i just lost track of what had happened.

i'll have to admit that i am indeed very busy with my work. learning to be more committed and learning new things everyday. to continue with this blog, i got to start off by saying that my laptop got stolen and my digital camera got stolen. so i guess this pretty explains why i didn't blog for so long.

i am in the midst of surveying few items which i needed to purchase. first on the list would be a car and a laptop. which i have yet to decide on. i can't really tell when i'll get it, because every time when i learn how to prioritize other issue seems to interrupt it.

i am coping and i am waiting. i guess that's all for this very short update. will be back, hopefully soon.

till then people, just got to love what you are doing.

What's Wrong With My Picture

2010-03-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, a look on life before the start of work and a little on the first few days of work.

i am not lost. i am just a little worry. i know that now, i need to focus on getting myself to stay rather than anything else. the rest can wait, and to be honest i can't really predict when the exact time i will get myself the perfect place to live. somehow, by april i must just settle down. it will happen !

work is getting busier, been familiarizing myself with the management style in the agency. a great improvement considering on what i left off last week. been going out to meet up with clients pretty much everyday, and sometimes you got so busy till you enjoy every moment of it. i guessed, as long as there's initiative, focus and an act of activeness , work will be fine. after all you are to do the work. why grumble and not be happy about it ? take it as a step to build a really great career.

on something that is in relation to the title, seriously, what's wrong with my pictures ? tell me, i need to know. should i be worried of it, go into the paranoia mode ? at this moment, mentally i can't take in this as i got a few things else which are more important to think about it.

well, i don't really want to care about. that's all for this moment, will update again when i have the time and the connection.

till then people, you are the only one who determines how you live your life.

One Week

2010-03-11T21:43:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, the very last moment before i packed all my things..thought for a moment..and then got myself a goodnight sleep. yes, the very last day before i got myself engaged to the job that i am at right now.

so far so good.

it's been nearly a week, and i miss my home and a little blogging. the place i am staying at the moment got no internet connection, so to online, it's either office or outside. seriously, i am now at mcdonalds. and for the first time, blogging (a thing which is so private to me) in a place that is so so public.

i am adjusting myself to the working life although the environment i am somehow already familiarized with it already. thank god for the internship, the whole scene is nothing new to me. work is progressing i would say. meeting up with clients and a lot of catching up (in terms of work scope) to be done.

good, i am now speechless and got nothing to type out thanks to the news that i am facing right now.

well, got to go now, will continue very soon. tired and planning to get some rest now.

till then people, do not simply make a promise.

The Job

2010-03-07T02:10:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, i attended an interview early the week and started on a new project. a project which i wished that i will continue doing it, hence keeping myself and my passion alive.

so i am back again, despite the busy week which i have just gone through. as happy as i can be right now, there are still mix feelings in me. later, i'll be heading to kl and practically start a new adventure for myself. although the place is not new to me, i am still afraid. there are indeed a lot of factors to consider.

just two days after the interview, i got the reply from the general manager. finally, i am wanted by a company and what more can i ask for ? grateful and be thankful that i got myself a job. a job that is going to kick start my career. i have searched long enough, nearly two months and i think i can finally put the exploration to rest.

as it is going to be a new adventure, i am hoping for the best and will make the most out of this journey. be all positive and to avoid all negative vibe as much as possible. it is going to be a great path, just for a better future.

well, i guess that's all from me now. will not know how soon i can online again, will update whenever possible. going to bed soon, have a good rest and face the world again tomorrow.

till then people, do keep in touch !

Happy Hunting

2010-03-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, last day of the chinese new year i would say. dessert and a sweet ending.

i am back. after spending two days in kl. it seems to me that it's like forever i am there. a little slow how time passes and seriously, i will navigate and plan properly next time. didn't do anything much except for the main purpose which was to attend the job interview. little shopping being done although someone did spend a lot. cash..ka ching.

as i said or have thought of it, i am not going to elaborate or put any expectations on the interview. session where carried out and i will just let the outcome (whichever it is) to just manifest itself. hopefully and as promised by the interviewer i will then know the decision by this week.

supposed there's another interview yesterday but then was in penang. i replied, asking a change on the date trying to make it later today. sadly, got no email reply from the person in charge. called the office and she was not in. so i guess there won't be any interview tomorrow after all. will probably take the free day to sort out the dirty laundry, sleep and just rest at home. tired, tired of traveling and having to go through nearly 3 sleepless night.

well, guess that's all now. as of today, i would say there's one more thing for me to look forward doing it and hopefully inspiration will keep on coming. yes, decided to start on a new project. some personal project that i am all hyped up right now.

till then people, try searching for it ?

Next Up

2010-02-28T03:12:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, spending the chinese new year with family and friends were the best thing for me to do during the festive season. catching up and chatting all the way through the night was fun indeed. outing was great, indeed a boost to my not so happening social life.

i am back again, and promised that it's going to be a very short post. as today marks the end of the 15 day chinese new year celebration, let us once again be blessed with a sweet and wonderful year ahead of us. as always, the last day of the chinese new year usually will see my family cooking up the dessert called "bo bo cha cha" to wrap up the celebration. it's a symbolism of a sweet year ahead of us and may good things happen.

so after cooking up the dessert (which i will try to post it up next time) i quickly headed on to pack my things. yes, i will be heading for an interview on monday and all i can say is that i am just adding knowledge to my experience. of course, heading down to kl will also means some shopping to do.

well, guess that's all now. will pack my stuff now and try to get myself a goodnight sleep.

till then people, will be back soon.

The Roaring Year

2010-02-25T18:37:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, it was the last day of the year of the ox. technically speaking, a busy day with a lot of things to be done. yet, i managed to post a shout-out to all readers wishing them a very happy chinese new year, and not forgetting happy valentine's day too.

it's now 12 days past the celebration and 3 more days we will end the first 15 days of the new year. perhaps, life will be back to normal and it's time again for us to face the reality. so, the past one week was pure enjoyment and soaking in all the times spent with family members. hence that explain the reason why there's no update last week. a little preoccupied and seriously, there's nothing interesting for me to post up.

now that i am sort of back to my life, once again i am feeling the mixed feeling again. as much as i got couple of things done, somehow i need to put more love into the next two important area in the chapters of my life. let's start with, when will it happen. perhaps, it will be a fierce, competitive and fast pace year ahead.

this week also marked the continuation of my job hunting and as usual sent few applications. up till now, all i can say is that i am tired.i have got no feeling anymore and all i can do is just to persevere. if there's interview, i'll attend. if there's rejection, i'll accept it with the urge to do better next time. i am not giving up yet.

well, i guess that's all from me now. going to get a slice of that layer cake and put it in my mouth though feeling a little feverish.

till then people, it's your second chance to make your resolution.

A Lovely Chinese New Year

2010-02-13T17:16:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, chinese new year is approaching. to get into the festive mood, i share the kuih kapit recipe and also blogged about the preparations which i did in welcoming the year of the tiger.

today would be the last day of the year of the ox and tomorrow will be a brand new year for the chinese around the world. as a custom, today is the day where prayers will be made to the ancestor and reunion dinner is a must. hence, while some decided to spend it with friends it's a busy day that bonds my family together. without going through it, the custom and tradition will not leave on.

taking a bit time off the schedule, i just want to make a shout out to all readers a Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day.

well, i guess that's all and for the coming few days, as usual it's going to be a busy one. will get back to the preparation on tonight's dinner. nothing more traditional than a steamboat meal !

till then people, have a great start once again !

Writing Love Letters

2010-02-07T21:32:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, a very tight schedule to be completed. at least it kept me busy till the chinese new year celebration. it's all about cleaning and to be honest, when you clean somehow you will gain a happy feeling. sense of relief !

so last week, i gathered with few of my friends and decided to make love letters or locally known as the kuih kapit. the kuih kapit, it's a must have thing during the chinese new year especially when you are celebrating it here in malaysia and to be precise in penang. it's the local's customs and a tradition of the nyonya people to bake kuih kapit as to mark the arrival of the new year.

making it was fun. it brought back lots of memories and how last time i used to help out my mother and my grandmother to make those fragile bite size food. it used to be an annual affair till we moved to the current place that i am living. perhaps the limited space in the current house has forbids us from making kuih kapit anymore. but then, let us not let the tradition dies off just like that.

so to make the kuih kapit, here are the ingredients you will need:

500 gm of rice flour
140 gm of tapioca flour
680 gm of castor sugar
5 cups of coconut milk
20 eggs

in this recipe, ordinary flour has been replaced by tapioca flour to give out a shinier texture to the kuih kapit.
adding more eggs will make the kuih kapit thinner and crunchier.
take note that there are no exact measurement to traditional cooking as you will have to taste and feel as you go along.

first you will have to combine the eggs and the sugar by beating it with a whisk. then sieve the rice flour and tapioca flour mixture into the egg and sugar mixture. as you fold in the rice flour and tapioca flour, maintain a constant movement as to prevent the batter from clotting. once that's achieved, pour in the coconut milk bit by bit. save some of the coconut milk as towards the end the batter might gets thicken. so the remaining coconut milk is to add in at that point.

once the batter is prepared, you can now start the baking process. the kuih kapit mold is to be heated up over the hot charcoal. before you do that, using kitchen towel wipe some oil onto the mold as this will prevent the batter from sticking to the mold. once the mold is hot enough slowly scoop in the batter by using a ladle. bake it for about a minute. make sure to watch the charcoal as you bake. once done, fold it into a fan shape.

to ease you from visualizing the process, enjoy the pictures below:

gently scraping off the side of the kuih.

it should be of pale brown color when it's cooked.

carefully and quickly. fold it half and half again to get the fan shape.

store in a container when it's cool.

voila, the end product !

well i guess that is all from me now. one thing for sure, i am feeling the celebration right now as i type this entry. guess i am going to be all busy once again, busy preparing for the chinese new year.

till then people, it's good to go back and celebrate with your family members.

Clean Slate

2010-02-02T15:13:00.008+08:00

previously on this is my life, having all the free time in the world means only one thing for me. sit down, relax, rest and to make proper planning and visualization of the future. as i don't want to make mistakes which i have seen, i guessed it would be best for me to just take it step by step.

it's been almost 10 days since i posted anything up. i am back once again despite the heavy schedule that i underwent and for sure, the coming 2 weeks will be packed with a lot of things to do. reason for not being able to update the blog last week was simply due to the fact that i headed to kl for an interview. a very casual interview and for the first time, there was no application form for me to fill up. i am sensing a lot of positivity in it and the environment is somewhat friendlier.

now, letting the outcome of the interview to just manifest itself, i got myself busy and trying not to think about it. so i went out with friends for some shopping and last sunday i got myself to indulge in the festivity by baking some traditional cookies (kuih kapit to be precise), of course with few other friends. it's a good comeback i would say as i have not been doing it for almost 6 years. i am still good at it but then will have to admit that i there were differences - then and now. as for yesterday, i found myself resting and not doing anything. muscles and bones were simply aching.

so in 2 weeks time, we will be celebrating the chinese new year and i promised myself that i will make the last 2 weeks of the year of ox a productive one. i have no choice but to make it work.

among the things that needed to be done:

cleaning the house (left some part of it)
major clean-over on my room
last round of shopping
groceries and marketing
sorting out the unwanted clothes
chinese new year greetings

well, i guess that's all for now. a very short and quick update on me. will probably go clean the house right after this and try to get few things done so that i will have more time to focus on some thing else.

till then people, just like a leopard, i guess that tiger will never changes its stripes.

Tell Me What To Do

2010-01-22T03:28:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, as madonna would sing "i am not afraid of what i will face but i am afraid to stay" indeed the lyrics of the song really impacted me and described my current state of emotions.

it's been about a week since i posted up anything in this blog. somehow i am feeling that the more time i have not doing anything, the more reason i have to just laze around at home and at times, feeling sort of unproductive. should i be soaking into the joy of completing my degree and by all means take at least some time to just be happy and not worry about anything ?

i know, it's hard to adapt to this new found joy when you have been pretty much cracking your head and working your ass off for the past three wonderful years for the ever demanding assignments which i enjoyed doing it. i know i am still fresh, and there are a lot more things for me to absorb. the industry is like a new adventure for me. another chapter of my life which i am eager to explore and once again to learn from every step i take in this journey.

perhaps that's the reason why i am still not working right now. i figured out that i must be very much careful in applying the job or position that i wanted and the agency that i want to work in. the ideal first job means a lot as i believe that it pretty much determine the course of your career. as much as we can still change the path in the middle of the journey, the experience would not be the same if it varies from the field that we initially step foot on. hence, that would be the reason why i am so selective.

i guess i am just afraid to make the wrong decision and regret later but then again, i will never know if i didn't make it. they said that fresh graduates are very demanding in terms of job application, lack of industry experience and at times cannot present themselves confidently. personally, i will take the available free time to just improve in the aspects that i am lacking. in the end, it comes to the packaging of oneself to sell themselves to that ideal company.

with that, i rejected one company that already wanted to take me in due to some reasons and would like to say that already explored the possible opportunities in the home state. for that, i am now feeling happy and ever that optimistic with no regrets at all for my action.

well, i guess that is all for now. a long entry on what my mind is up to for the moment. going to bed right after this, and hoping for another attractive days ahead of me. before that, i am posting two videos on the songs that i am currently into. artiste name 009 Sound System, great trance, dance and lounge music for enjoyment and relaxation. give it a listen !

till then people, got to be proud of yourselves.

Make It Your Own

2010-01-15T01:24:00.010+08:00

previously on this is my life, attended interview and decided to wait for the reply. sitting at home and not grabbing every possible opportunities, somehow telling me that take things step by step.

i am back today with a very mix feelings. part of me is reluctant and the other half of me is slightly a little scared. so tell me, a good vibe i am feeling or it's just a feeling which i wake up the next day it would just go away ? i don't really know what to do or how to feel anymore as i am really tired of the process.

as of today, i am at least moving on from what has been bothering me the past few weeks. in the end, what i learn from this about to finish process is a simple act of just "ask". if you are not sure about anything, then by all means open up the mouth and ask the question to the right person and then hopefully you will get the answer.

imagine a life, where you struggle in the beginning but then after a while you get use to it. or perhaps a life where everything is to your comfort and it's sort of laid back lifestyle. which one would you prefer ? honestly ? i believe that somehow as a human being we are drawn to fame, money, power and glamorous world portrays by the reality. it makes us so materialistic and superficial at times, but then i will have to come to realization that, that's in fact the facts of life. and in order to survive, if you can't fight them then join them.

as much as passion is concern, i am still pretty much aware of what i want to do in life. where i want to go if i want to pursue my passion and how i am going to get it starting for me. handling rejection and again, is part of the process. handling life would be greater.

everything is being balanced out perfectly and it's hard for us to have winter and summer together. if it's the path that i choose, then i must be aware of the consequences. no shortcut in life means we will just got to work extra harder to achieve the ultimate goal in life.

well i guess that's all the thoughts which i have in mind and would like to get it out. no, i am not depress and not being emotional but then just intrigued by how this adventure or the process has taken me into.

till then people, as the tune to madonna's jump: "are you ready to jump... get ready to jump...".

Experiencing Experience

2010-01-09T22:21:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, struck by dilemma. feeling lost and tired of all the decisions making. somehow, it was a very emotional entry (in a good way i would say).

today, i am back again. i been thinking a lot about certain things which at times i see a lot of resemblance in me. things which i have gone through, seems to be repeating in the act of other people doing it. it's hard to understand why it happened that way and when it's so obvious that it's a repetition, no acknowledgment was being made to at least kept us aware of the situation they were going through.

all week long, i have been staying at home and occasionally went out once or twice with my friends. yes i know, i am not working at the moment and having all the free time in the world does not mean that i must go out so often and spending money like it's free. i did researched on certain stuff other than to search for jobs, stuff that i think i might be considering in the future.

so, as of yesterday, i got sort of a wake up call. well not that it happened during my sleep but then an incident which made me realized on the aspects of my career. people can me very mean and people can be very friendly to you. i think i heard enough of people keep on saying 'fresh grad, no experience', as much as it's been a fact to us somehow that statement 100% true i would say. yes, on one hand you can consider that they got no work experience but then what about life experiences ? doesn't that count as experience as well ? as much as work is being considered, it's part of our life too. if it's to be based solely on work experience, then i assume it will be very hard to get a job as i believe the first step or the first job is important as it set the mark to our career. hence, if nobody is going to give the fresh grad a chance to work and perform then they will never gain enough work experience to satisfy the employer.

to me, no matter what they throw to me i take it as part of the challenges. after all, it's alright for me to say that i have a passion for my dream. people asked, are you committed to the company ? and i would loved to ask back, which is better: being committed to my career or committed to the company ? in the end, no one cares more about you other than yourself.

so take a moment to think about it, take into a deep consideration when planning to search for a job. think whether it's the money for the moment ? just to fill up the time ? to build a strong career ? to help the company grow ? or what ?

well i guess that's all the rumbling i have for now. enjoy the ever funny videos which i have posted below for your entertainment. let us just laugh and do not think about the problems. let it sit and manifest itself. and when the time comes, the answer will just pop right out in front of us. and then, that's the time when you will just say 'see, isn't it that obvious now ?'.

till then people, is better if it can be avoided !

One Door Closes, Two Doors Open

2010-01-08T02:05:00.009+08:00

previously on this is my life, new year and another new journey. it's not another regimented year for sure and one thing to mark the new year would be the new layout done to this blog.

i am in deep dilemma once again, life indeed is a bitch. after nearly 2 months of driving myself crazy and up the wall, i thought my mind is being cleared when i have decided to move back to my hometown and start on my career. it went pretty well, from getting my resume written up, preparing cover letter, choosing the right artwork to build up my portfolio, sending out applications, researching on the companies and other things a fresh grad will do.

so, i have so far attended 2 interviews. one, which i have gave up hope on waiting suddenly called and told me that they decided to take me in (name that company A) and that happened right before i got myself out from my house to attend another interview at company B.

interview went very well at company B i would say. although i am still awaiting for their reply, i am confident that they will be hiring me. going into the room to get myself questioned by the people somehow seems not to be so scary. i guess getting yourself to attend many interview sessions help a lot and that does not mean i myself attended a lot of interviews. as mentioned, attended 2 and rejected 1.

now, the actual problem is this. i am now once again torn between company A or company B. which one ? leave it all to fate, or take charge and start to decide on my career path ? go for something i am comfortable doing it or go for something that is somewhat little new to me ? or go in simply because it's a very creative environment or go in and build up a creative environment ? or maybe, do things which is similar to what have done before or take a risk, learn, try and be accounted if there are mistakes ? to have regular hours or pour in more hours ?

as much as i already have a decision, somehow i still cannot make myself to say yes to one company and to say no to the other one. why must it be in this way, always that indecisive. over thinking ? or is it the decision that i am making will basically be the one that i am going to stick to for few years, a long term plan ? can i just bang my head to the wall, or pray for an answer ? both are equally good and both provide opportunities for me to learn.

well, i think this is all i have to say. torn between those two, i wonder i can sleep peacefully or not tonight. overall it's been a good day, but then when it's about making decisions it turned into something that is scared and resulted my emotions to go dysfunction.

till then people, where are all my senses ?

New Year, New Year I Love You !

2010-01-04T04:00:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, a review on the year 2009. it has been a very productive year full of ups and downs in which i cherished all the experiences that i gone through. i guessed, time indeed passes very fast.

three days into the new year and i am still trying to get myself settled down. as from last week, i have been motivating myself to at least unpack things which i brought back home from kl. frankly, my room is now just full of boxes and bags of clothes which i have yet to take it out and organize it. already resting enough, somehow i am just not working.

as you all can see from this entry, i did a little readjustment to the blog. yes, the layout or i would say the color scheme is slightly different from last year's. this year, i am trying to keep the visuals at minimum as i would prefer it to be posted in the entry instead of me putting up colorful banner that distracted the content of the blog. also to that, colors that are used in this new layout would be black and white, and tones between those two colors.

at first, i tried to totally change the layout by uploading new template but then it seems that if i were to do that, i would have to delete most of the widgets that accompany this blog. i just not ready to take it off yet.

with this new layout, i am hoping for a better year that is ahead of me and hopefully i will be able to achieve my resolutions (which i secretly keep in my mind) and again to have another great year. yes, a lot of expectations but somehow at least few days into the new year i am sensing a good start ahead of me.

well, i guess that's all for the moment. it's getting late and i am feeling sleepy from adjusting the new layout.

till then people, make sure that it can be accomplished !

A Colourful 2009

2009-12-30T23:30:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, i came back from kl sort of unpacking my stuff and at one point, it got me just like that. that's when i started to ponder on what the future holds for. how am i going to start off my career.

as we are going to bid farewell to 2009, let us take a moment to look back on this blog and how i have grown from it.

january: it's a new beginning

JANUARY 2009: the drama for this year started with me going back to the kl house, and was sort of pissed off by the cleanliness of the house. it's rubbish everywhere and it got me to think, how on earth they can live like that. then something which i have anticipated, arrived. i started my internship at bates141, one of the top agencies in the country. as always, walking into the agency for the first really impressed me in a good. that's the point where i know, i must be in this creative field. i would say the first month interning there was a complete waste of my presence. i started to complain as there's nothing for to do at all and then i realized, for the sake of the agency name just bare with it. at least it will be good for my CV. also this month, started to post on malaysia's cultural dance. the dance featured for january 2009 was joget.

february: abstract design in my complicated life

FEBRUARY 2009: i went back to my hometown for the chinese new year celebration. it was fun coming back home as i have been getting myself to work from 9-5. i miss home. after the chinese new year holiday, went back to kl, back to work. and started thinking of the future, life in this industry. one entry, had me to expressed on some people's attitude towards love. i'll have to admit that, this blog would be nothing without them. one memorable incident happened this month was non other than the toilet incident and also to see how cunning a person can be. somebody got overly obsessed and i found out that one person is being ungrateful to me. ended the month with zapin.

march: tribute to KARMA

MARCH 2009: i got myself into a sea of negativity in which i realized that it's doing harm to my health. my positive chi just not flowing correctly. thank god for the kylie minogue concert dvd i am slightly feeling much better. going out as usual, night outs and also to malls. things started to be so familiar, after working for about 2 months. i attended a movie premiere for the first time and did some charity work at home. march 2009 ended with the ngajat dance.

april: a month to shine, glowing rainbow

APRIL 2009: the month started with me deciding on how i want my future to be. how bad i want to materialize my dreams and how i am going to plan it out. the character, she's mean resurfaces and this time it's even worst. it's like comparing a broom and a vacuum cleaner. not wanting to be a bad person, i entertained her. i decided to extend my internship duration, and hoping that by staying longer i will be exposed to more things. got my evaluation from my supervisor, continued with work and celebrated one of my friends birthday at a posh-ey restaurant. ended the month with kuda kepang dance.

may: feeling fashion, i want a trench

MAY 2009: ended my internship. i will definitely miss it. went back home and lazing around, neglected the blog. went around food trail back at home, searched for local dishes. the blog's third anniversary and prepared to head back to kl. the holiday month ended with mak yong.

june: batik, batik

JUNE 2009: the start of another academic semester. visited the national zoo, right before everyone is busy with assignments. attended my cousin's wedding and another drama from the house. i blogged on what people will do for 15 minutes of fame, from my point of view and the drama got more intense. when it comes to assignment, people will just compare while trying to compete. sadly, some just don't know the rules of design and criticized without going through the facts. canggung was being featured this month.

july: going minimum, simplicity

JULY 2009: the newly started academic semester seems to be very fast, some how tension got its way between me and few classmates. yes, bitches and bastards. purposely put on a show so that they can be mentioned in this blog. as i said, whatever it is there's no connection. for the sake of the blog, i changed the url. somehow i am another level up in this KARMA philosophy on mine. as usual, weekends night out and hanging out with friends. ended the month with inang dance.

august: a face for me to ponder

AUGUST 2009: things started to get serious as timing is really running out. got approval on my dissertation title, took the graduation photos and rushing to meet the assignment deadline. a discovery on my group member, in which she absolutely ditch the whole assignment. pretending that we can cover up for her (watch out, you might not be lucky next time). the month ended with dikir dance.

september: putting the pieces together, the mosaic

SEPTEMBER 2009: finished assignments, submitted and prepared for the examinations. in the midst of revision, got hooked on to one particular tune which kept me looping it over and over again. somehow people in the house started to get very wolf-like. scary, dangerous and something to be avoided. using the networking skill, someone got a camera and flashed it like nobody business. celebrated one house mate's birthday and the month wrapped up with the tarian piring dance.

october: let the energy flow

OCTOBER 2009: judge and being judged, helped out a friend of mine to work on some project. finished my exams, went back home and had lots of fun. caught up with friends and talked on lots of things. came back to kl to start on my final semester before graduating. a short semester worth going through. the month ended with randai.

november: time to paint my future

NOVEMBER 2009: my birthday month. somebody tried to escape, my senses were telling me that. it was the time where dissertation being finalized, completed and checked through. career to be planned out, resume to be sent out and so many thing to do. at one point, i was completely blanked out, don't know what to do. friends and few house mates celebrated my birthday. i enjoyed all of it very much. somehow, i got to see something else. something for me to ponder. just before the last entry, i am about done with my study life. what's left was one paper to sit and that's it. cinta sayang dance was being featured.

december: a sweet ending, candy anyone ?

DECEMBER 2009: i'll have to say that i am some how few entries behind time. i am so busy, packing up my stuff, preparing my resume and portfolio as well as to study for the last paper. upon finishing the last paper, i spent the weekends with my sis and my aunt. i got back home only to realize that i had to babysit my uncle's house for two days. unhappy at first, because i couldn't get anything done. got myself back to kl again to finish packing up my stuff and moving it back to my house. also, a little shopping to mark the end of my study life. up till now, i am still a little indecisive on my career's plan. as it's the last month of the year, i will be heading out to witness the country's own cultural dance performances. hence, there will be no write up on the feature dance.

well, i guess that's all from me now. a long entry in which i reviewed the year 2009. i'll have to admit that 2009 indeed a great year for me as i got to observe, learn and experience a lot of things. so i think that's it and see you all in the new year.

before i end, i would like to wish all readers a very happy new year to you all and may all be blessed with wisdom and luck. may all good things happen, and hopefully the new year brings a good start to our dreams.

till then people, isn't it colourful ?

*i think this entry is long enought to be credited as a two-part post.

I Have A Dream

2009-12-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, i went back to KL to pack my stuff. yes, indeed i am moving all my things back to home.

it was a different kind of christmas to me, this year. nothing winter wonderland about it and instead, i kept myself in the holiday mood by worrying about packing, fitting it all into the car, decision and as well as my career. on top of that, coordinating and deciding on what sort of clothes i will be wearing for the upcoming chinese new year.

i have to admit that finding job is no easy thing to do, sometimes we blame the applicants for being too picky and sometimes we put the blame on the company for not being understanding at all. i am torn and stuck in between those two. having sent out job applications to companies in hometown, i will have to come to reality that penang provide very less opportunities especially on the field that i am studying. it's a sad thing, having to complete my studies and wanting to come back and contribute to my beloved hometown. so seriously, what can i do now. keep on waiting for them to hopefully consider me or take a step and start sending out applications to kl agencies ?

i am not in the dilemma whether to work in my hometown or kl. to me, it's just safer to shift everything back, at least my home will be my base. assume that it's my headquarters and i can at least be comfortable while waiting for the next big thing to happen in my life. who ever you are, future cannot be predicted. all we can see are possible plans for us to execute. i totally believe in my ability and i strongly confident that i can make it wherever i go. as long as there's a strong work ethics in me, work will just be a norm to me.

it's only been couple of weeks i finished my last paper. easy as i would say, i am now putting some hope, hoping that the results for both my last paper as well as my final project turn out to be very very satisfying. after all, i have put in efforts in preparing and lastly to present it very well. nicely done and good job. a pat on my back ! i will definitely miss the experience of waking up early in the morning preparing for classes, staying up late in search for ideas to execute the assignments and also time spent with house mates as well as friends from university. indeed, it's one kind of experience.

for the moment, i know i must hang on to past memories as now i must start to attract my dream and pulls it nearer to me. i need to get myself a job. i started to work of some plans, and all i can do is to take it slow, nice and easy. so one thing for sure, i must not be stressed about it.

well, i guess that's all for now and will be updating real soon. time is really tick toking down very fast, and in few days time 2009 will come to an end. so wish me luck in catching up on this blog. i assume, 3 more entries to go before the year ends.

till then people, law of attraction ?

Happy Holidays !

2009-12-24T16:17:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, missing a lot of entries. ever since the start of december, i have been not productive at all.

well, i am back now with a very short note. wishing all merry x-mas and a happy 2010 new year.

heading back to KL again after being at home for merely 12 hours, sigh..what a post-study life i am going through right now. shopping, packing and don't really know what else going to happen.

till then, be merry and jolly. don't be naughty !

Stuck In "Million Dollar Mansion"

2009-12-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, another dance entry was being featured in this blog. a short description on the cinta sayang dance and the origins of it. that entry marked the end of another month, november 2009.

to be honest, i am still pretty much aware of the existence of this blog and some how i still didn't find the time/muse to update on it. i am now about 6 entries behind and for the past 3 weeks, a lot of things happened. the past 3 weeks also had me to step foot on three different places, some where for relaxation, some serious matter and some plainly just being at home.

before i proceed to talking on the more recent stuff, i shall just indicate here the entries which i missed out. somehow i must get it posted up here before year end and hopefully it will just happen, magically.

one day trip to malacca
study week trip back to home sweet home
interview/career/resume/dilemma
exams/thesis/final final semester
post exam activities

so there are 5 entries for me to write up and some. still need to upload pictures (hopefully i will be able to free some disk space off my computer). a lot of things to keep me occupied till the start of the new year. new year, new life and new adventure. i just can't wait for 2010, but then still need to complete the to do list before i can start visualizing what 2010 installs for me.

so back to today's title, indeed i am now held hostage in this "million dollar mansion". as much as i am now back to my hometown, i still can't go back to my home sweet home. sucks, on top of that i reached my hometown like yesterday late midnight. thanks to the improper planning and time management, i got stuck and i am feeling that it cost my career. you know, just how opportunities will tend to fly away in split seconds.

somehow, news of me coming back got it ways to other people's attention. i got few days here in penang, before heading back to kl again to finish packing up my things and moving all my stuff back to my house. i question, why some people can be so daring in asking favor's from me. it's like we only meet up once a year, and i am no BFF to you. why me, why now ? perhaps i am just overloaded with positive chi that people just want me to be in their house so that i can spread some yang energy to their so called "million dollar mansion". not that i am bragging too much about this, but sometimes be a little more considerate and manage your own life properly just like how i manage mine. the only reason i am doing it right now is just simply because in believe in KARMA.

oh gosh, i think i am done voicing out the most recent problem that strikes me. i had enough of it and will just learn from it. it's a worth going through lesson.

well, i guess that's all from me now. will try to draft for the entries which i missed out. then probably will just keep myself sane by doing things which i usually do at home.

till then people, bail me out from this prison cell !

Dance of November: Cinta Sayang

2009-11-30T00:23:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, i have finally finished the final presentation of my final semester. definitely a time to celebrate until, a moment that i realized something else that needed my consideration.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called cinta sayang.

this dance has it roots in kedah. it is very popular especially among the sea-faring communities along the coastal areas.

the dance is performed both by men and women bidding good luck to their comrades and loved ones as the embark on their journey out to the sea while praying for their safe return.

the males dancers usually wear baju melayu (malay costumes) with chequered sampin and songkok while the women wear the baju kedah (kedah women's attire) and a selendang.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance cinta sayang from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample of this dance.

till then people, there's no point in rushing.

That's It

2009-11-26T20:22:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, birthday. last entry of my 2009 birthday celebration. and that, indeed revealed a much closer date in which november 2009 is getting to an end. say bye bye, bid farewell to it. one more month left, have you fulfill your 2008 new year's resolutions yet ?

today is a very relaxing day for me, and yet i still find myself feeling weak. i know i am suppose to be resting, should just sleep all day long and just bother not to do anything. yesterday, before i slept, i made a list on what to do the next day. not a long list though, but somehow at least 2 or 3 things on that list must be done by today. if not, i'll just blame myself for not taking charge of my life.

i did, woke up late just now and it's nothing new to me. i guessed i am only awaken by the hot and brightly beamed sunlight that passes through the window. the alarm, every time it sounded i just kept turning it off giving me sometime to just say "another 15 minutes will do". that 15 minutes that i bargained for, turned out to be at least an hour of sleep and when i finally got myself up, i realized i am behind time already.

this entry, marks the end of my degree life. well, not really finish yet considering there's still one paper to sit in the final examination and approval to be confirmed before submitting my dissertation. what's over for now are presentations and tonnes of assignments in which i enjoyed every sane moment i had with it. it was a fun thing to do, and never that eye-opening to me. every assignment just accumulated the fun and intensity. i will definitely miss the moment of not sleeping so that i could finish up the assignments and also the fact that it's some sort like a compare and compete thing.

with that in mind, it's time now to get serious and to face the other chapter of my life. and again, i am on my own and i will have to make decisions. so, the initial plan for this particular moment is to just update on few things then i can make the next step.

well, i guess that's all from me now. grabbing dinner, and finish up the rest of the to do list later.

till then, ready for the next chapter ?

B'day Me (Part 2)

2009-11-21T17:45:00.007+08:00

previously on this is my life, make a wish and blow the candle. that's the start of every dream that we made. the path in realizing it, was not that easy as it seems.

i back and a little relief. submitted the last group assignment of the last semester. although not feeling the vibe from this particular assignment as much the previous few semesters, i am glad to say that it's over and from now onwards we are on our own. striking off the group assignment, what is left are presentation and my thesis writing. and in few days time, i am just going to finish up my thesis and then be happy once again before diving myself into pool of decisions and considerations.

looking back, all i can say that working as a group indeed an experience for me. people will just be the way they are meant to be.

so continuing from the last entry, here's a detailed scoop on how i spent my birthday with friends. first of all, it's like a crazy three day feast. first up was the eve of my birthday which i had dinner with juz at pasta zanmai then the actual day, celebrated with my housemates and post-birthday dinner with close friends at werner's. i pretty much liked all the food that i had throughout the three days. wonderful, scrumptious and highly different. with the choice of restaurant that i opted, i guessed it's somewhat special.

below are the pictures from the dinner a day after my birthday.

werner's at changkat bukit bintang.

interior of the restaurant.

glimpse of the upstairs.

farfalle pasta (lobster sauce and yummy prawns).

tuna sashimi pizza (chef's recommendation).

squid ink pasta.

smoked duck meat pizza.

dessert (andreas special - chocolate fudge, almonds, mousse and a dash of wine in it)

exterior view of the restaurant.

four of us at the dining table.

with that, i would once again thank my friends: juz, housemates (yuzin, zef, ian, oswin and johnny) as well as iL, kel and alan for the wonderful meal that you guys treated me. a big THANK YOU !

well, that's all for this entry and will be back pretty soon. perhaps tonight, if i feeling like writing then i'll just blog about it later. got to finish watching all the series and then really get some serious stuff work out.

till then, play on that song and just sing along.

B'day Me (Part 1)

2009-11-17T02:14:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, the flow of creativity somehow got lost on its way to my brain. it was as if something is blocking it from coming to me. at one moment, felt panicked and the other moment just too down to do anything.

so, i am finally posting up my birthday entry. but then to make it a little more special, i will try to make it into few entries as cramping everything into this entry will make it not so special anymore. as you can see, this year my birthday was a little different. it was like a 3-day celebration that started on the eve, actual birthday and a day after. i am just so blessed. initially i have though the other way round, perhaps only closest friends will only surprised me but then in the end i was wrong.

it all started with the wish. as they said, make a wish before you blow the candle. we wished for the best every time we close our eyes and visualize on the dream that we wished. at times, we taught that it will come to us naturally and as willingly as possible. after all, there's always the phrase "dream come true" and does that mean we will have a happily ever after life. the answer, i think it's obvious that it's a no.

i believe that having to wish on that dream of ours, served as a goal. something to motivate us to achieve it in the future. without the dream as our guidance, we might lose focus and eventually we might forget on why inn the first place we are doing the things that we are doing right now. having a dream is easy, making a wish is easier and trust me to achieve it, definitely not through the easiest way round.

there comes a time when we will have to decide and weigh the options. to plan out all the actions that we are going to commit and perhaps list out all the possibilities if we were to decide on that action. whatever it is, we must always be aware to take life as a whole and not see it like a pieces of puzzle. as much as puzzles complete the big picture, failing in seeing life as a big picture might causes us to make regretful mistakes.

always the big dream. everybody dreamed of being successful. how do we achieve that ? taking the small steps, taking the big risk, having to suffer now or just plainly let nature takes its course. as much as we would love to avoid all those frustrating problems, life is not that easy as 1, 2 and 3. if everything were to be calculated out in life, then i assume every one will have an easy life.

well i think that's all for now. a slice of my dream and what's underneath the dream. layer and layers of decisions, problems and dilemma affecting me right now. as they said, the older you go, the wiser and mature you will be. guess, this particular moment of my life right now is having me to take a careful look into my future planning. damn tough for my age.

till then people, officially next week onwards it will be all about decisions.

Mental Block

2009-11-12T11:44:00.000+08:00

previously on this is my life, changed the banner and changed the songs. another monthly make over that indicated that we are now indeed at the mere ending months for the year 2009.

i wonder what's happening to me right now. the mental block that i am having right now somehow manage to block the creativity from flowing into me. one day, and there's no progress to the artwork and to make it worst, now i am hit by a moment of serious thinking/evaluating/considering on certain matter in life. it's just so hard, knowing that the semester is about to end and yet i am still not making things work according to what i planned.

this and that, here and there. i am very lost and don't know what to do. if only there's a book to all the answers to my life then my life would be as light as a feather would be. as much as i am pretty aware that stress/burdens will make one stronger in making decisions in life, too much of it can be very hurtful if you don't know how to handle it.

i know this entry suppose to be above my birthday and how i celebrated it. that entry can wait as i just need to express this before i got to bed. so how now ?

well, i think i'll just sleep on the creative ideas and as for the other problem i guess i'll just have to talk it out with someone else.

till then, always plan before act !

Colour Me Now

2009-11-05T13:13:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, another month another dance. last entry marked the end of october 2009. randai was being featured and the fast rhythmic tempo, martial art infuses dance no doubt can be popularized even more as this dance is little known by the people.

it's november now. am i suppose to start panicking right now ? despite all the things that i am going through, i know that in 2 months time we will bid goodbye to the year 2009 and moving forward to the year 2010. just a moment ago i was chatting with my friend, saying that a lot of considerations needed to be taken in. so many and yet a limited time for me to think and evaluate about it.

whatever it is, one good news would be that my submission date for my dissertation has been postponed. now that i got more time to do, i think i can make the whole thing actually work. i must put in more effort, love and i must be liking what i am doing. if not, it will just not turn out the way that it supposed to be. i can see, some people just plainly copying their dissertation from others and some copying and yet said that it's their original work. it's just so weird to see most of them doing sort of similar topic/title. oh my, where is the creativity and the sense of originality ? can't they come up something that is appropriately nice reflecting their personality ?

i don't want to say anything more on this. at the moment, the only concern that i have is to keep me inspired all month long so that i can happily complete my thesis. then, i will slowly ponder on the things that i will be facing in the future.

well, that's all for now. a little short entry, just to indicate that i have once again changed the banner of my blog. also added in new song, which i found it to be very positive indeed. going to just continue with my stuff right now.

till then people, the great escape ?

Dance of October: Randai

2009-10-31T23:59:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, a lot of copying can be seen going around here. fake imitation, not as good as the original one being produced. and the saddest part was that no one dare to acknowledge, which lead us to where are the honesty and sincerity.

for this month let us take a look on the dance called randai.

randai is a folk theater tradition of the minangkabau ethic group which infuses music, singing, dance and martial art (silat). this dance is usually performed for traditional ceremonies and festivals. normally, complex stories may span a number of nights.

performed as a group, this dance is being danced in a circular shape to achieve an equality and unity between audience members and the performers. randai performances are a synthesis of alternating martial arts dances, songs and acted scenes.

randai originated early in the 20th century out of fusion of local martial arts, story telling and other performance traditions. this dance is popularised in negri sembilan.

as to this dance, the dancers will usually beat on their pants (stretched) like a drum, to generate energetic rhythm.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance randai from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample of this dance.

till then people, what a wonderful life. have you decided on the next idol ?

Simon Says

2009-10-28T15:58:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, a blast holiday. that's all i can say about my just ended semester break.

coming back here and once again, another short semester (my final one) seems to be really intense, very intense ! everything seems to be happening so fast till there's a moment i just stop and not do anything thinking that there's still plenty of time left for me to complete what i am supposed to do this semester. one group assignment and one dissertation to be completed in a month's time. i know i can do it, but now it's just the matter of when. when will my inspiration come and where can i find it. without waiting for that, i just bare in mind that it's just a matter of organizing the things carefully, manage it well, then finally just do some editing to it and at last i am finished.

some people can still not do anything, some people will do thing you do and some people already do things more than what accomplished. so am i going to be pressured by all those three categories of people or just sit back and enjoy the remaining five weeks of studies and live it to the fullest. watch the show and wait for the finale ?

well, i guess i am just too sleepy to continue with this entry. all i need to promise my self is to just get it done, present it with a touch of class and then be thankful that i will be finishing my studies soon. immediately right after this, i am just going to sleep and by the time i am awake i will continue working on my papers.

relax or serious ? work harder or more effort ? to smile or laugh ? close one eye and let it be or continue to observe with another eye ? i am just "not" so "stress" right now !

till then people, trendsetter anyone or would you rather play simon says ?

*that's the recent picture that i took. sometimes it will help by just starring at your own picture.

The Past, Present & Future Tense ( Anybody Feeling It ? )

2009-10-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, a day of celebration. joy and being around with family. although not actually celebrating it, being granted the public holiday what else can i asked for ? as it's a holiday, i took the whole day to just spend quality time with my family as it would be the last weekend before heading back to start the new final semester of my degree.

i want to be inspired this week. flying high that took me to feel heaven, i was motivated to get things done and to finally show some progress on my work. the journey back from home to here gave me a very short moment to think about the long journey about my life. don't worry, this entry will not be about plans for the future or has it got to do with any decisions that i am about to make. as i mentioned, i'll try to put aside the "future" for at least about 20 more days so that i can concentrate on the "present". as i believed when i am done with the "present" i'll definitely will feel the reward coming in the future.

so putting that aside, i must say that the past and the final semester holiday of mine was well spent. for once, it's actually a time whereby i took some days to really indulged myself in what people will usually do when they are on a break. i went out with my friends, met some of them and catched up on stories about their life that i have left out. old and new discoveries were being unfolded, secrets were being spilled and one thing for sure, a little rendezvous at times will get you some shocking news. at least for me, now i know the real reason why one person's behavior is like that after hearing it. sorry, as much as what goes up must come down sometimes in life we just got to aim high to be better than anyone else.

after a moment of chit chatting and channeling other persona with some jokes.

of course other than juicy gossips, what's a holiday without a feast. i dined with friends. chinese, crepes, sushi, seafood and local cuisines were among the food that we had to complement the outing. it's always nice to see how food (and one other stuff) can bring people together. after all when it's scrumptiously delicious, i am sure you won't mind sharing it with your friends. can i have one, then ?

pictures above: all the yummy yummy food !

the pure relaxation i must say, came from the spa that we visited. fish spa to be exact. nothing fishy about it, and if you are in the case of sensitivity then it will be a tingling orgasmic moment for you. trying out new thing/activity such as this was definitely worth the experience. at first, dipping my legs into the pool got me laughing for about 10-15 minutes. right after that uneasiness moment of getting use to the nibbling and kissing of the fish to your skin, i would say the remaining time is pampering and pleasuring. it just take that one courageous action of dipping your legs into the pool to get the feel of the feeling that i am talking about.

therapeutic ?

well it's once again getting lengthy and i will just stop here right now. will be back soon to talk about the opening of the final semester. for now, i am just going to clean myself and then continue on my thesis writing, before retreating to the bed and calls it a night.

till then people, it's gonna be a pretty interesting finale !

A Festival of Lights, Diwali

2009-10-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, people has been dramatizing their lives to the extend that they don't feel tired of it but i am. it's ok to have a little drama in life, however too much of it will be very disturbing unless you know how to act in the drama you created.

so i am back again and this time it's going to be a short post. i just wanted to do a little shout out to those who are celebrating the festival of lights, diwali.

as always, being in malaysia you can't run away from the festivities. and being malaysian you must not know about diwali or deepavali. although celebrated by the indians, every main festival in the country is now celebrated practically by everyone. so being a true malaysian, i took the effort to research a little on the history of this celebration.

few things and traditions in this country, obviously i will be missing the delicious food that will be served during this day. open-house that gives us the opportunity to learn and understand other people's culture. from the sweet delicacies to the deep fried muruku as well as all the curries, this festival has then gained its popularity among the youth. the open-house concept which is highly encouraged by the government seems to be successful in fostering unity among the people of different races in the country.

well, promise to keep it short and i will end right here. so once again, wishing all a very happy diwali and maybe all be blessed with abundance of happiness and prosperity.

till then people, it's time to aim for that finish line.

Drama Like There's No Tomorrow

2009-10-15T18:21:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, reviewed shakira's latest album and overall few songs in that album worth listening to.

say this is true. where ever we turn to or go to there bound to be drama. interesting, boring, long-winded, repetitious, short-lived and out of all these too much of drama will drive you crazy. honestly, i thought of getting the much needed rest when i come back here for my holidays but then all i am feeling right now is extreme tiredness that surrounds my mind, body and soul. this explains why i sleep that often when i am at home. i am just so tired of all the drama, it is as if it follows me back from kl to pg.

as i got to know about what happened in this set of drama, i just can't believe on the follow up actions would be. oh my, drama queen here and drama queen there. first was the used of words, constantly telling and letting us how bad and affected the life has been. i appreciated the kindness in asking us to be much careful in the future, but then don't you feel that excessive flow of information will sometimes be very fuckingly annoying ?

foreseeing that and a little evaluation on what happened last time, i know some people will just not get over things that easily. and true enough, here comes the next action in this campaign of bringing awareness to friends as well as the public. pictures and "creatively" written copy being posted up in facebook. and as what i learned, keep your headline short and attention-grabbing. well, the headline definitely grabbed me and in which it makes me think the experience that you gained. perhaps these are one of the ways people trying to gain attention and in return making the poorly planned drama such a high hit.

so i want to know, how come just can't get over the already past unhappy event and move on. there's no point deliberating on the past, which in the first place makes you sad and frustrated. start planning for the future and for once, grow up and get over it like a rich kid does. you have the money, the cash and the everything to make you happy. and trust me, drama is not meant for you as it has always been my show all this while.

well, i don't want to be such a drama person and will just end right here. as for the part of planning for the future, i think i'll have to put a stop for at least a month to settle things off. i need to get it done and complete it in the given deadline. supposed am going to post pictures of my holiday outings, guess it will have to wait to make way for this hot juicy drama !

till then people, you think that you worth my attention ?

Review: Shakira - She Wolf

2009-10-10T03:05:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, a person is being judged. over and over again, and as if i just not tired from doing that. somehow, after every judging it seems that the outcome is just the same as the previous one. so should i continue judging and in turn being judged or just let it got and forget about everything ?

it's pretty late (for a person who is still awake) and kind of early (for those who is waking up now). at this particular hour, i don't think so i am going to bed any sooner as i'll have to fetch my mother to the airport in a few hours time. i would rather not sleep than to be waken up later. to sleep later would definitely give me an uninterrupted pleasure of sleeping.

trying to look for a few things to keep me awake and occupy my time till about 6am, i think would just do a review. a music review to be exact. a lot of times about short movie review, never before (i think) have i done anything like this. so this week, practically there are a lot of albums released by the international artistes. one of it and the one that i am going to review is no other than shakira.

this album, she wolf would be her third english studio album. she wolf album consists of 12 tracks with the last 3 tracks being the spanish version of she wolf, did it again and why wait. overall this album shows an improve side of her vocal as well as the musical genre approach. as much as it's a little more urban, her distinct latin's beat can still be heard in most of the songs. her powerful vocal as always, conquered each song perfectly and the songs can be quite a tune to be hummed in the head.

1. she wolf - probably due to the influence of the pop-culture trend. movies about vampires, werewolves probably inspired her to pen this song. very catchy, addictive and up tempo. the howling part is most probably the highlight of the song.

2. did it again - second single from this album. a song that put emphasized more on her vocal rather than letting the heavy electro-beat dominating the song. fast beat, easy to follow chorus part. very less latin influence in it ?

3. long time - intro of this song something like madonna's vogue, slower version of hips don't lie. strong latin beat.

4. why wait - a little something similar to britney's gimme more. very close to the songs featured in her laundry service album. not really liking it.

5. good stuff - another latin/spanish/arabic/mystical song.

6. men in this town - something from her that infuses typical pop song yet very new and fresh. vocally and musically addictive. a cross of kylie and celine, nothing latin can be heard in this song.

7. gypsy - a ballad song. this slow pace song with a slightly faster pace chorus make this song in the album the one that we can really relax while listening to it. the used of traditional indian instruments to build up the melody of this song can be clearly heard.

8. spy - a mix of urban, hip hop, pop and some r&b.

9. mon amour - not that heavy rock song ? chorus not bad.

10. lo hecho estai hecho - spanish version of did it again.

11. anos luz - spanish version of why wait.

12. loba - spanish version of she wolf.

overall this album worth listening to. whether dance along to the songs or just merely for the pleasure of listening, few songs in it are actually great. among the tracks that i like in this album would be she wolf, did it again, gypsy and men in this town. the rest would probably need some time for me to fancy it.

well i guess that's all from me now. going to continue listening to the songs in the album and hopefully by then will be energetic enough to drive my mother to the nearby airport.

till then people, there is nothing sweeter than...

Miss Judged

2009-10-05T03:46:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, just another cultural/traditional dance entry for the month of september. i featured the tarian piring dance which can be said to be quite popular in the country.

i know i am behind time. i am late. once again as i am typing this i am about one entry late. somehow as time goes by and especially the past semester till now, i have been quite reluctant to post. sometimes it's due to some blockage to my mind that resulted me in failing to come out with the right material for the blog. there's just not that much of drama going on nowadays in my life.

beauty, brain and body - the mantra in the pageant world. you think you got all that, you think you can be the winner and you think you are born with it. as much as life is like a chocolate, well to be honest life indeed is like a pageant contest. everybody wants to be crowned the queen, everybody wants to compete, everybody wants to be clever, everybody wants to look and feel good and the list continues.

in fact in life, we are so in the game until we forgotten that as much as we are competing in life with other people we neglect that we are being judged and constantly we judge people as well. you see, i don't mind people judging me as i believe that when they judge and feedback me only then i can improve on my life. as to when we judge people, it's just merely comparison and hopefully by comparing (both to the best and to the worst) we will boost our own self-esteem. we will never get enough of judging, being judged or other wise.

having said that, it crossed my mind when i think of this particular moment that i am going through right now. last month i encountered this dilemma, simple enough it's just a matter of to help or not to help. and from what my friends advice me, they said "just say no". so, taking that into consideration and plus a little something for my portfolio i eventually said yes. yes, i will help you.

later on, started to work on the project which i offered to help. the job being done without any hassle. i am happy with the outcome of it, emailed it to the person whom i helped. so i thought i am done helping and i can continue with my exams. well, first round of charity leads to another round. another favor this person asked. somehow being overly too generous can be quite addictive. i helped again and got the job done.

no problem. now, i am questioning the sincerity and the intention. taking all the credits ? why me after a moment of disappearing from my presence. and i always thought that you wanted to break away from the group (or at least me), trying not to associate you and us together (as we can be an embarrassment at times). i mean i am quite alright (after what i have been through) as i know what you did to me, trying to avoid me with all the excuses. but then now it's like as if i am owing you. i don't know. perhaps religion will have the answers ? after all who am i to judge you ?

i guess in the end, the statement which i told one friend of mine is true after all. friendship is for using each other.

well, i guess that's all for this entry. i need to warn myself again to be careful and not to complain next time if i ever offer to help. at times, doing charity sucks ! when people pretend to appreciate you effort. to the pageant-crowned-obsessed friend of mine, trust me this is not the title that you want to win in the pageant. you can take miss congeniality, miss photogenic or miss "whatever" but definitely not miss judged.

till then people, do you want to be crowned now ?

Dance of September: Tarian Piring

2009-09-30T23:56:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, i got back to home. from something which i see as nothing back to the place where i called it home and being surrounded by the sea, indeed something to make me feel more homey.

for this month let us take a look on the dance called piring, or more precisely as what the locals call it the tarian piring.

this tarian piring is believed to come from the minangkabau, the sumatran island. it develop until the era of the ancient ruler of sri vijayan empire and the dance was introduced to the malay stated after the fall of that ancient ruler of the majapahit empire. the tarian is synonymously link to the state of negri sembilan in malaysia.

this dance is performed to show off the skill of the dancers in holding and at the same time balancing the 'piring' or saucers in their hands while dancing to the fast movements of the dance choreography. these movements include rolling, squatting, walking on the plates and fast movements of the hands following the beat of the music.

this dance is performed by both male and female dancers. elaborate costumes and distinguishly the female dancer's head gear can be seen very unsual as it's the shape of pointed hat, linked to the minangkabau architecture (the wooden arch-roof). often, during the finale of the dance the dancers will break the saucers, smashed it on the floor and they will then jump on the broken pieces of porcelain and dance without hurting themselves. there is definitely an element of a trance-like state that the dancers work themselves into in order to perform this last section of the dance.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance tarian piring from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample of this dance.

till then people, there's an urge to feel more inspired !

*changed banner. changed the tune, put in 2 new melodies.

Nothing to Sea

2009-09-25T17:18:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, people with their passion. was it more on the item that they bought, or they were just flaunting their new found attitude as supposed to the hobby ? got to know a philanthropist, a sign of good luck that you have.

happy. that's the current state of feelings that i am going through right now. being back at home once again just lifted up my mood her. it's like away from all the drama and falseness, untruthfulness and lack of sincerity. enough of submerging myself with all that, coming back means one thing. island, sunny and positivity. nothing more than that. clean environment, not like that place which to me more like a shit hole than a house. i wonder, how can one stays in there and not let it affect the emotions.

i tried uploading pictures to this blog since yesterday, and to the many attempts that i tried it seems that the pictures just stubbornly don't want to be featured in this entry. well, nothing important really. it's just few pictures that we took during one outing of me with my housemates to celebrate one house mate's birthday. nothing fancy and classy, only pictures of the food that will probably tempt you. it's just a typical dinner at italiannies followed by a cocktail session in which one or two people actually ordered.

moving on from there, and i think should be mentioned first. i finished all four papers of the exam in two weeks period. most of it, i would say it's just like any other ordinary exams same like every other semester. studied, stressed out (though it's not supposed to be) and relax. the other day, as we were making our last minute run through on the lecture notes we agreed that as each semester passes by we get lazier and lazier. hmm, need a change for that !

well, i think i got to stop here now. been going out quite frequent, something i wouldn't normally do during my semester holidays. perhaps i just don't want to be socially extinct, like some people or friends who just sometimes fade away from your presence. oh yea, another reason to add to my excitement. now that it's fall (in the states) all my favorite tv shows are like coming back. starting of with a few reality shows, then gossip girl. omg, must watch gossip girl. alright, that's all and got to prep myself for dinner session with friends later.

till then people, and i quote from gossip girl "apparently higher education doesn't make for smarter decisions. so take out your notebooks and sharpen your pencils, kids. gossip girl's going to college, and this class has a lot to learn".

*finally able to upload the pictures. enjoy !

Click Click, Flash Flash !

2009-09-20T02:38:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, people being as carnivorous as possible. biting and munching on bad behaviors, and i guess that this is what they feed on: negative recipe in their life. i got carried away, listened to the favorite tune over and over again. come to think of it, i applied some thoughts into what people said about thinking.

is dslr camera the new must have fashion accessory ? some people just got carried away, thinking that it will be the in thing to have. whatever it is, i respect your hobby and if that ever turns out to be your true passion then it will definitely proves me wrong. so please, tell me that i am in the wrong. enough of the talking and let me see the action.

it's already enough to hear all the stories and how 2 months (i guess) of knowing a person can turn your life just like that, just the way you like it. being brave is one thing, to try is another thing. i don't really believe that there's plenty of good people out there in the world. so good and kind that they are willing to pay you RM500 a day just to accompany him or her out. you see, the act of companionship at times can be viewed as something that is not very flattering. so, i am asking whether are you going to continue not telling the truth and think that it's all going to be ok ? don't give the wrong interpretation of you to the people around you.

i don't know, maybe you are extremely brave to try new thing or i am jealous of the way how you get to meet and connect with people, great and well-known people as acclaimed by you. as much as networking is important in life, sometimes a little self-respect is important. you just got to let people see that you are respecting yourself and you are living your life with no lies beneath those skins. so i would think that, the best way right now is to for you not to tell me about the new found passion. a little of it will be enough, please don't go over the top. i don't want to here the whole novel of it, just give me an article if you really need to. i don't want to know and i am not interested. i have plenty more other things to do in my life than to hear your so near yet so far accomplishment.

you know, i think when people stop telling you stuff like what they used to do it shows that they are intimidated by us. indirectly this translates to them telling us that we are the ultimate, i bow down to you and i will quickly fade away. it's true especially when what i can see in the place that i am living in. not telling you then they turn to another person and the whole cycle starts again. they will talk, bond and drift away occasionally.

there's a lot of things going on, perhaps the past two days that i spent mostly alone in the house has resulted me to really really think about it. the house suddenly turns to heaven. i cleaned it a little here and there and from heaven it's now paradise heave. i have been thinking a lot especially on the matter regarding the people in the house. why bother, don't really want to talk about it, it makes me sad to figure out where is the brain sometimes. it's just that when you are in my shoe you will just feel what i am feeling now.

well i think that's all for now. it's getting late and i should be sleeping now. i just know that it will be a great day when i wake up. one more paper to go and i am wishing that the examination will be over soon. i am supposed to finish up one thing, but then instead of the one on top of the to do list i completed some other stuff. so i guess, as long as there's a little work done it's ok and don't have to feel guilty of not doing it.

before i end i would like to make a shout out to all readers:

till then people, this is not the right way to click !

They Wolves

2009-09-16T16:44:00.007+08:00

previously on this is my life, panic attacked. there was a need for me to just update the blog. it's been left hanging for like 2 weeks and certainly i just don't want to feel left out. finished one paper, changed the header and a piece of what was on my mind at that particular time.

sos they are in disguise. there is no wolf in my closet, perhaps there are wolves in the house. coming out and get you down. no, this song is not about shakira's latest single she wolf neither it's about another cover version sang by some drag queens during their performances. observing the past few days incidents just make me want to relate it to this song.

it's true. i was told by one person that how your mind works is determined by your age and that doesn't mean that if you are older then you can think better. trust me, it doesn't go that way. if you think that older means much mature, then honey, mind you it's time to wake up and smell the reality of the world. the statements which you made mentioning that "you guys are younger, we older age (duh, it's like only one or two years) we think differently" "we think deeper than what you guys, you guys think only at the surface (are you implying that we are shallow ?)".

if one is smart enough, i think they know how to think properly. depending on the situation, if you are and like me in the midst of examinations, do you think i need to care and go think of stuff that are not even closely related to the test ? when it comes to this period of time, all i am focus to is to relax and to revise on the subjects. and that's the only matter. do you think i give myself sleepless night pondering on the wide chapter of life and human interactions ? no, i don't give a damn on it as i don't want it to affect my studies.

i told a close friend that there's no one to talk to and that i got no choice but to channel it all into this entry. i already see that maturity and thinking techniques are something to be developed and it doesn't comes with your age. and if they are not wise, old or mature to see that, then who is in the better position to make those bias remarks ?

enough of that said, i'll have to admit that i have been quite obsessive. especially the past two days i have been humming to the tune of "you belong with me" by taylor swift. on monday, i practically looped the song for like one whole day and drastic enough, that's the only song i listened on that day. i mean i was asked by one housemate why am i so obsessed with that song. well, i mean if a tune can make you a little more happier then no harm in continuing the act that would maintain your happiness. after all, it's important not to stress out during the time of examination. so that was like one remedy to keep your mind at ease.

well, enough of the observation thing. i need to go study now. couple more topics to go, then i think i can face the paper with no worries. revising is a fun thing to do. it's just merely browsing through notes and some flashback work. only memorize when it's required. it's raining sort of heavily now, i am torn between two decisions now. sleep or study ? the two s-es that's always make my life miserable. decide.

till then people, just be careful of the cannibalistic wolves.

*i think the spin off can be done. looking forward to the development of it.

Life Is Mosaic

2009-09-13T02:51:00.007+08:00

previously on this is my life, how's the design of the website that we have created ? i hope the simplicity of the layout was able to capture your attention.

it feels like only a moment ago that i updated my blog. i really need to post of more stuff to compensate the 2 weeks absence, which resulted me not doing anything to maintain this blog. felt guilty but then sometimes, there's this feeling that urges you not to do it and just don't go care about it. i got that. but now, i am back to normal i would say.

i woke up with ideas in my mind. and as promised, thought of a lot of design in coming up the new header more this "merely" abandoned blog. i was playing with the idea of mosaic. how the tiles being laid out, creating a very abstract representation of my life. although geometrically it's very obvious it's all squares, life is not as simple as what you see.

i read a friend's blog and i just don't know what's going on. i got no clue to even associate what it's all about. just like the take on life, sometimes it goes deeper than what we expected. things will get complicated and sometimes it just will take a 360 degree turn. no, it will take a 180 degree turn as if it's 360 degree then it would go back to the initial state. whatever it is, life is to enjoy. and what we can always do as much as upholding the belief of KARMA, we try to live it to the fullest as whenever it's possible. once again, positivity !

i finished one paper, now what's left are three more to go. exams, can be stressful but then my idea of exam is that to stress is not compulsory at all. after all, examinations are to test what you have learned and not what you memorized. understanding the subject is essential, and true enough although memorizing will help in scoring better in the test without understanding we will not be able to learn. it will just defeat the purpose. same goes to human relationship. try to understand before proceeding to memorizing the negative and positive attributes of that person. only then we judge.

i dunno what's happening to me now. it's getting late and perhaps the guilt in me is slowly turning me insomniac. was it because of something that i said. i don't know. it's better to just keep it to myself. doing that, i'll just have to be a little more secretive and not sharing. just like how i know things work around me. quite long, but we never know.

ponder on this: can life be that simple and clean ?

well that's all for now, gonna just get things settled down. will probably look through some lecture notes before i go to bed. one more week to go and then back to home sweet home again.

till then people, please engage yourselves into a good life.

Weave

2009-09-09T03:30:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, end of august. 2 entries 1 day. normally, i would end each month with a traditional dance related post. and for the previous month no exception, dikir was being featured as the dance of august.

i...am...back. yes, i am now back blogging after a near 2 weeks of hiatus from the blogging world. i'm still pretty much here, not going anywhere other than going back to my home for a week last week. i'll have to admit that being home basically shut down my drive to update. everyday for the past one week, i have been telling myself to write something but then it seems that i got carried away.

today, i am not going to talk about what happened during my trip back but then i am going to push back the week before i went back. so as you peeps might have read from the previous two entries, i was busy occupying my time trying to complete this one particular group assignment that i oversee. as always, being the leader for the assignment you will have the responsibility to make sure that the end result of the work is presentable. hence with this in mind, i would have to constantly do a check on my members to see whether the visual impact of the design is there or not.

honestly speaking, i sincerely would like to thank members who put in effort in developing the assignment from the day of brainstorming till the day of presentation for a well done job. their effort spending 1 whole day, nearly 18 hours in doing the assignment really paid off. the at the last minute addition and changes to the assignment worth attempting. as when we put risk in our work, we gamble with the result. i like it, the way we organize our stuff and the method we do the assignment. and with all that, we got the highest among the rest - need i say more now ? proud.

so below would be the snapshot of the website that we designed for a property company to promote their product. (i tried to make it interactive by recording it into video but then i think i am still new to that software, i just have not figure out how to convert it) (so instead of that, i just post pictures of the assignment)

basically this is the welcome page.

about us. as you can see it got a very simple and minimal layout.

concept and design of the property.

as you click on the link, pop up screen will appear.

another page about facilities and amenities.

the flash interactive gallery that we incorporated into the website.

promotion page which we put in. noted that video can be played by clicking the button on the picture.

rollover and the map enlarges.

one thing i learn this semester and from being leader and from this assignment was to delegate the task accordingly. as in this semester, i believe that there's hardly any one man show and teamwork is indeed important in creating a masterpiece. as much as one person can do it all, when it comes to this context and especially it's a group assignment then by all means do it as a group. learning to trust and let go is important. rule of thumb, never assume that you as a leader can handle all of it.

well i think i better stop here now. the pictures posted make this post absolutely long now. got to study for my upcoming paper this friday, hence it's better for me to get the needed sleep so that when i wake up i'll be fresh and energetic. hopefully i will have the drive to study and memorize.

till then people, keep it real, simple and honest !
*new banner coming up this weekend. can't delay it anymore.

Dance of August: Dikir

2009-08-31T11:33:00.000+08:00

previously on this is my life, in the midst of completing my assignment i found myself blogging about it and how it got me a little bit competitive and trying to get it done just like how we had planned it would be. also, the country's "Merdeka" celebration. freedom, still i got to finish up the assignment.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called dikir.

dikir is dance formed normally by ten to fifteen members and is lead by a tukang karut. the dancers are positioned sitting down, crossed leg and emphasize a lot on the rhythm of the hand movements. in addition to that, the play of facial expression by each dancers are also important in bringing out the essence of the dance itself.

the tukang karut will usually sing the melody of the song to the dance while the members or the dancers will be joining in singing the chorus or the bridge. traditional instruments that accompany dikir are rebana, small gong and also maracas.

this dance is highly popularize in kelantan, the northern region of the country. bordered by Thailand, we can see that this dance got some influence of the siamese culture in it although still local movements that choreographed into this dance and the dialect used can still be seen distinctively.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance dikir from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample for this dance.

till then people, got to study smart.

Not Depending

2009-08-31T01:20:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, it's like a cover story or something. one or two discoveries that really opened up your eyes. people's behavior, when we reveal the truth of it can be equally shocking. so might cover up their act, pretending to get busy and some got themselves a laid back moment trying not to cover anything up, as to they are trying to be plainly honest.

i am back. once again, i had planned to update like two days ago but then assignments has been occupying my time. for the past one week, although not that drastic, i have been busy either re-layout the design, do new design or finding ways to make the assignment presentable. not that it's a last minute thing but then at the end of the day, there's this one problem that made the whole piece of work fail.

also adding to that not so happy moment, pressure from other group has driven me to this make-it-work frenzy mode. i just somehow need to tune everything together, delegating job well and in the end hopefully it will have a good result. i must say that now, i am happy with the about to finish result. still got a little more to do, then i am done for this web designing subject.

there's a lot to talk about, but then i just want to keep it short by just updating on what i am up to lately. perhaps coming entries i will dig deeper on today's post, then it will be once again encrypted entry whereby certain people will only understand what the heck i am writing.

well, that's all from me for now. will just go bathe and continue with my assignment and taking my time to complete. will definitely be busy for the coming day or two. after that, i am off back to my home sweet home, preparing and relaxing my mind for the final exams. enjoy the above message that i have designed specially for my beloved country, malaysia. wishing her a very happy 52nd birthday.

till then people, are you an independent person ?

Cover Up

2009-08-25T13:29:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, it rained like cats and dogs making the weather something to die for. it gave a total contrast from the normal hot sunny day. with all the rain, it got hold of the internet connection and damn, i lost contact with the cyberworld during that weekend.

so it's another week from my last entry. time passes really fast and next week, it will be the end of another semester (minus the examination). still there are plenty of assignments to be done. somehow, i am assuming that all of it are under control and can be completed in the given deadline. i mean, if following the plan tightly and no changes to the ideas then it will really help in getting to the finish line ahead of time.

there's this one situation whereby this group member of mine asked whether there's anything that can be help out. then i said why don't you do this, go online search for this thing then try to put it in and make it attractive. well, you know what it's like in the end this group member asked me back that the file could not be opened. my point here is that, if given a task (furthermore it's a task that you volunteered) then by hook or by crook get it done and make it work. i mean not only this subject but other subjects as well, from what i can see.

i don't really want to be bothered by it. i mean, just a few adjustment away and this assignment will be done in no time.

something strange is happening, i noticed that there are no news regarding the situation of H1N1 in the local newspapers. what, suddenly there's a cure to it or just simply not wanting us to know about the reality of this pandemic ? i don't know, only that yesterday a friend of mine pointed out to me that there are no single article in the newspaper. even when i tried to search online regarding this matter, everything and anything about it in Malaysia resulted in 0 result.

well, i guess that's all from me now. got to get myself freshen up then take my lunch and then start to work on the assignment. must be inspired today so that there will not be delayed in work. so, let's not waste time and do something that the result can be seen and proud of.

till then people, love to spend or spend to love ?

Back In Line

2009-08-18T22:14:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, thinking of home ? feeling the negative impact ? life indeed is about that 2 charges. just like yin and yang, it's the matter of how you balance it.

there has been a lot of things happening the past one week, particularly during the weekends. last week, was the time whereby i got myself to recover from the week long sickness that include flu, fever, cough and sore throat. happy to say that now, i am feeling much better and that does not mean that i must neglect taking care of myself.

the past weekend, away from negative forces it rained heavily. can say that it has been raining everyday. thank god, now i will not feel that hot anymore. so the heavy rain caused our house's modem and router damaged. that's the reason for the short hiatus. could not online for 2 days. so to fill up the cyber time that i lost, i watched a few series and movies for that consecutive two days. it filled up my time until i'll have to admit that i got overly lazy to touch on my assignments. also with the cooling weather, i just spent most of the time either sleeping or just plainly doing nothing.

so pushing away the negative vibes, i am now realizing that the semester is once again about to come to an end. in a matter of 2 more weeks, i'll be done for the final long semester and then left one short semester to go before finishing this course. assignments, i am not saying that it's piling up only that it's not moving. i don't know, perhaps i need some boost to help me rebooting my system. i know, once i start the ball rolling it will set a good phase for me to just finish up the assignment and most importantly my dissertation.

in this entry also, i would like to congratulate few friends who has just graduated and went through their convocation. so happy for them that finally their degree life is over. i am sure they themselves are proud of their achievements and all the memories that they had gathered during their studies in their respective universities or colleges. so from now on, i wish them all the best in the coming path of life that they opted.

well, i guess that's all for now. a short update on me. nothing much happening except for the frequent rainy day. i will now continue with my assignment and will have at least some sort of result by end of today. bit by bit, and that's how you complete it.

till then people, a friend of mine is now attached with a boyfriend.

That 2 Charges

2009-08-09T18:40:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, good news despite feeling sick the past week. finally got the green light on my proposal, which means now i can proceed to do major things on the dissertation.

i am definitely feeling better and that's a good sign of recovering. realizing that most of the time i am stuck with negative vibe projected by someone, i guess we must really learn how to take it not that serious and assume it that it just his or her role to just be that way. nature works in a way that everyone has got their niche in the environment, so if nobody wants to take up being negative, then i am pretty sure that the world will be too perfect for us to live in.

just a moment ago, i stared out of the window looking up to the sky. not that cloudy, but then i prayed hard that it will just rain. it's been pretty hot and dry for the past few days. not getting the rain will just kill my sanity. dealing with the negatives at home just requires me to just drench myself in this heaven of rains that will cool and calm down my soul. i need to not feel hot for once.

sometimes we have to agree that, being negative it's not wrong after all. without the negatives, once again where do we develop the positive in life ? i think it would be fair if one knows how to be negative in a positive way. say whatever they wanted to say, in the end make sure that it's a statement that can be digested by whoever listening to it. no point making negative statements that is too late to be changed. i find it strange, the evil mean negative things in one's life. i am just hoping that in the end they can realized that the negative is not worth carrying on in life. very honest, sincere and friendly place to be.

well, i guess that's all about it for the moment. to be honest, i am thinking of my home sweet home waiting for that study week to come so that i can once again go back and move away from what's so negative place i am living in. nothing much need i elaborate, a lot of things have said but never done. i am just thankful for the eye opening experiences that i encountered so far.

till then people, lock that damn front gate padlock !

Celebration

2009-08-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, another dance related entry whereby inang was briefly featured. a dance that is graceful and very hard to master, the performances for this dance can rarely be seen in today's society.

celebration. partly because of the latest single by madonna. the song that i am currently hook on to. something that is so groovy, the dance tune definitely keeps me going day and day. there's a lot of things that had happened for the past month. non of it i would like to talk about, only things that worth keeping in the memory will be remembered. so the month of july, not that bad at all i would say. as from the previous entries, i hang out most of the weekends with my closest friends. hunting down fine food, going to places that's happening to the night life and most of all to be with people that we are comfortable to express ourselves with.

other than going out, another reason to celebrate was that we finally took our graduation screen projection photo as well as the group photo. personally, it reminded us that the degree life is getting to an end soon. and by then, we will embark a new chapter in life and hopefully we will be much better in handling the situation. to that shoot also, i finally bought what people called the perfect white shirt.

another good news in life would be that, my dissertation proposal has finally been approve. so now i got no excuse to not do it and that i must try to complete it a little early than the given deadline. although there's been a major change to the title, deep down inside it's still something that i would do initially.

well, i think that's all from me now. a short entry on what's happening to my life lately. and as i am typing this, i am down with flu and a slight fever. hopefully with the medication that i am taking in i will be better sooner enough to get myself back on the track. tomorrow when i wake up, it will be much better. after all what is life without any challenges ?

till then people, self-discipline is all we need.

Dance of July: Inang

2009-07-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

previously on this is my life, night out all weekends. it seems that my saturday night was filled lot's of hanging out with my friends. going out to places, trying out good food and just go out and be seen.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called inang.

this inang dance is a modernized version of a previously well known version called mak inang. inang, in short can be seen popular throughout the country. especially in the states of kelantan and negeri sembilan, inang is performed during social functions such as wedding or during official government events.

the song and dance of inang, dated back during the 14th century of the country's history served as a lullaby to help the sultan sleeps easily. as time goes by, it's being altered and music was composed to make inang a dance that entertains the sultan. as this dance is very graceful, it has all the qualities of a palace dance.

inang is a fast tempo dance accompanied by the traditional musical instruments such as rebana, biola and gendang. the signature move to this dance would be the moving of the hands, swinging it gracefully while following to the beat of the song. significantly, this dance put focus on the flexibility of the dancer's hands. at most time, inang is performed by female dancers but then occasionally male dancers can be added to partner with the female dancers to make the whole dance choreography much more harmonious.

sometimes, the dancers will use scarves to perform this dance. the usage of the scarf will further enhance the gracefulness of this delicate dance choreography.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance inang from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample for this dance. due to the pictures size being too small, there will be no visuals accompanying this entry. therefore do enjoy the video below.

till then people, money must be funny in a rich man's world.

Night Time

2009-07-27T22:54:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, a week of outings and assignments. juggling two things at once, can be tough but then when we do it the right way it won't be on our way. as it's still fresh in my mind, when we feel good about our life there bound to be something that blocks our way and making the whole feel good feeling disappear. but then i guess, in life sometime in this journey there bound to be rocks or pebbles that just will appear in the middle of the road. all we need to do is to go over it, walk sideways or easier still we kick it out of our way.

yup, i am silencing the music player right now as i always believe that i get inspired the most when it's peaceful and quiet. it's easier for me to just pour everything out from my mind into this blog. before i begin to talk about what i have been up to, let me just divert you all to something that needs a little of our attention.

you know, once i heard that giving to many information to one party will make that party overpowered you. so, upholding to that statement although not fully i believe that when we felt uncomfortable we tend to keep ourselves quiet and not wanting to fell involve that much. true enough, today one friend of mine told me not to speak that much if we don't want to drag ourselves into the field of conflicts, stress and depression. one thing for sure, to only trust yourselves and gain total control of your own life. as much as taking criticism is important, one must also know how to let it go when it's no longer applicable in our life. so, i asked myself why do i bother so much when there's other issues that i can tackle on.

officially this month, it's like food, clothes and outings. living the life that i prefer and none of it can definitely happen without the clique of close friends i am with. we went out dining, hanging out and chit chatting, reminiscing back the good old days and enjoying the great time together. true enough, we can't really take people we known for like less than two years and labeled them friends. this thing takes time. i have known most of my close friends for nearly a decade now and all i can say, i don't simply consider anyone friend until i can trust him or her.

well i think that's all for now. the next entry i think i am going to talk about the weekly night outing that we gone through. for now, i am just going to finish up few tasks then freshen up myself and then just relax. hopefully by tomorrow i will be fresh enough to continue working on some academic stuff.

till then people, the safest place indeed the most dangerous hideout.

Your's Socially

2009-07-21T22:29:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, with unexpected twist the blog changed its address to prevent further abuse by some immature readers who could not handle the materials that was published in this blog. or was it just because that sometimes when the truth has been told, people will tend to grow themselves backwards denying the naked truth.

let go and move on. that's what we do in life. if holding grudges and still not satisfy with what we have now then i guess there's a lot of room for us to improve. perhaps a topic on handling criticism positively will help or even a lesson on "get yourself a life" will be better, if we were to learn it and apply it fast in our fast pace life.

so moving on from there, i have been pretty much busy. the past weekends i practically went out with my friends and had like wonderful meals. a lot we ate, and talked about practically lot's of topics that were related to us. you know how life can be, with all the drama going there's definitely a lot of things to say. after all, the only thing that i concluded was that damn right i am being active and not a passive person, and i am proud of myself for being sort of very involve in my life.

as for today, i completed my assignment that is going to be submitted tomorrow. it took me two days to put and edit everything together, and just finally i finished it. now almost everything done, there's just one more thing which is to develop it and make sure that the whole idea is working. that will be easy i guess as all the ideas and concepts were already planned out, what we need to do now is to just link it up and by then that will be the end of another semester.

from what i can see, it seems that when we have a dream people will tend to be on our way. certain people out of jealousy will try to pull down the goal that we envision. yes, they will get angry and resort to bad talking of things that we are going to achieve. so to make them happy, i just think that we are noble enough to just let them be who they are and it's not right for us to judge their behavior. if by them projecting out negative behavior will lead to their happiness then by all means let them go ahead. it will just see how they do not want to move on and grow in this very short life span of mankind.

well, i guess that's all for me now and that i just need to find new materials for this blog. there's a need for me to jazz it up a little bit more. i just don't know what to do for now as i already finished the assignment, i think i will just relax myself and will see from there.

till then people, don't hate me because i am popular.

The Show Must Go On

2009-07-15T22:30:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, two entries impacted the small social clique that surrounded me. as much as the past two entries got little to do with them, still it were being viewed as offensive and that people responded to it in a very negative way. jealousy out of anger or anger out of jealousy ? you tell me.

if you guys have noticed, i changed the blog address to that-itch-blog.blogspot.com. a name that is a little bit longer compared to the previous one but then it's now much more appealing i would say. don't worry, maybe perhaps in the future me-itch might return. for now, under this new blog address the style of writing will pretty much still be the same and that the drama will be as intense as ever.

people might ask, why the change ? well, i take it as a new beginning. it's not really a start over thing as the past entries are still very much available for viewing. i am trying to take this new blog address to a step higher. obviously after learning from the past mistakes, i think i am now wiser in managing my blog. therefore the change is once again something very positive to me as i already discarded few unwanted readers from this blog. as much as this blog is very public, from now on it's me, expressions and observations. why stop now, it's like the fourth year and am i going to throw away my work just like that ?

the main reason behind the change as stated was not to let certain people view the content. assuming that they are not mature enough for the kind of material that i am writing, they reacted in a very very childish manner. gladly, i am guessing that those poeple used to read this blog to get pleasure out of it. it's like sex, they got orgasm when reading all the juicy intense drama. i am happy to see that no std were transmitted through this way and that they replace sex with my blog. proud owner of the previously known, me-itch.blogspot.com.

well, i guess there's nothing much now for me to say as i just updated yesterday and that it caused a commotion. this entry is plainly to let you guys know why the change of address, nothing more than that.

till then people, awaiting for what's to come ?

*oh gosh, i am missing the old address now.

Whatever, There's No Connection

2009-07-14T23:24:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, did i mention that i was put to people's negativism for the past one week ? i know, it's very uncomfortable for me to even think about the matter again. that problem has been solved i assumed, and now it's up to the people to either go with the flow or just still stuck at that particular time frame and frown about it. how angry and dissatisfied the feeling would be.

the past one week and especially today has made me realized that once again there's no need for us in life to keep the unhappiness we encountered in our body. it's something very not healthy and that the accumulation of the negativism will just make matter worst. it's like you are already be saddened by one problem then imagine now you are doubling the problem and i wonder how can you coup ?

ok, putting whatever happened last week i am now back again and feeling great. i am motivated to just complete the remaining assignments and start preparing for what's about to come in the very near future. to be honest, non of us can predict what will happen in the future and this is why by preparing it will help us to face it without any worries.

i don't really know how many people are reading my blog, all i can say that friends who are close to me read my blog. other than that, it would be random people that i don't really know sometimes drop by and just see what's happening in my life. as i always practice, i write the truth out of the things that i faced or observed. as much as it's from my point of view, once again this blog is a medium for me to express my stress and problems out and not wanting to keep it and burden myself. also, it's a way for my friends to know about my update. it's not like i want to bitch about others and complaining how troubled i am by them, but then sometimes when you observed the outcome of the observation will definitely change your view on certain matters. now that i know, i will just ignore the negativism. as i mentioned earlier, the more one accumulate the negativity in them, the more troubled they will get. it's like holding grudges and hatred to others will just help KARMA get back to them.

well, i guess that's all from me now. just a statement that i want to make. so now it's either fake it or fade away, that's all i am asking. it's not that in life we never wear a mask before. therefore why want to unveil now and not continuing to wear other mask available ? why show the true self ? alright, i am done with that problem and i am definitely moving on from there. oh gosh, university life.

till then people, it's true that the absolute reality is better than the fantasy.

War Of The Words

2009-07-11T23:19:00.012+08:00

previously on this is my life, work piling up and schedule went erratic. a few matters needed to be settled and lucky enough some were being able to be completed while some still left hanging. as much as all the unsettled matters still around, i guess i can manage it and slowly it will be done without me noticing it once again.

so here it goes, i will have to admit that i am subject to people's obsession. the past one week was nothing more than high school all over again, only that this time it happened in the university. supposed a place that everyone can think and act out maturely, and with the objective of coming here and gain knowledge. knowledge although is important, some people also opted to go for another thing in life which is friendship. a vessel that test the your social skill and see how far you will sail or in a matter of time you might even sink.

indeed i have been bothered by that issue and don't worry, i am not sinking for now. as much as they thought that i am sinking right now, i am pretty much floating very well in this game that they have created. it started with assigning group in the class and then selecting group members for the assignment. obviously and after so many semesters, it's only fair for us to choose or band together with those whom we are comfortable working with or those who shows strong work ethics. having said that, there's one particular group member that i am so willing to push it down the ship and hopefully will drift all the way to the finish line.

there's no effort shown and i somehow feel that this group member is like taking a free ride in the assignment once again. well, that's not so major. so everything in the grouping matter for the assignment went pretty smoothly except for one subject. suddenly the lecturer decided to choose a member force to join the other lesser people group, let's name them the ducklings clique. in fact when the lecturer chose this group member of mine, i am so relief that finally the problem can be solved. sadly, the answer is no.

obviously still wanting to take a ride on the assignment, this member of mine voiced out the unhappiness in which resulted to me in solving the problem. so not long after that, i am bombarded with sms-es by fellow group leaders accusing me of not keeping to my words and that i am the cause for the break up in the group. so now how am i going to react ? as if it's my command to the lecturer to break up the group. hello, it's up to their hand. and how dare they said i never solve the problem.

i was like, screw and damn fuck up simply because being for not being serious in the matter. all i can observed and what they do in the past semester was like copied senior's work and the most boring part was that every time when it comes to presentation, they just read from the prepared slides. funny thing was that even reading from the text-filled slides they got the pronunciation wrong. well, i do hope those who are in my group, please buck up your English and don't embarrass me when you guys speak, more importantly is not to make a fool out of yourselves when presenting. sometimes again i wonder whether during the internship really showed them the industry as clearly as possible or they are just interning for the sake of getting good grade.

well i guess that's all for now. a lot of things that i wanted to write but then it will be better for me to just do it part by part. tomorrow will be another day and counting down, 6 more months and i am out of this house. a place that is nothing more than drama and me being people's obsession wanting me to be part of their life so badly.

till then people, get a life and face the reality.

Sailing Across

2009-07-06T23:59:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, another cultural dance related entry whereby i briefly featured the dance canggung. popular in the northern states, this dance is famously known throughout the country. no doubt, the dance fuses few more other well known dances into it.

i realized that the past weekend was that productive at all. i sat alone in my room, thinking about the situation that i am facing. situation that i thought happened only back in high school, but then the maturity level in those people proved me wrong. i don't really know what sort of drama they were trying to convey, simply was it because they never really been into the real industry before hence assuming that they can be who they are when they go out and work in the very near future.

i put that aside, i ignored them and all i can anticipate know is to see who will make and who will not. it's just as simple as that. narrowing down the bigger picture of the related situation, assignments are now turning to be something serious. it's not about the deadline, as through so many semesters working as a team i think we managed to identify out what's causing the delay. the actual problem here is about the execution now. you see, in this field of creativity sometimes it feels very insulting when ones does not buy your idea or your idea is being sparked to develop into brand new idea.

tough, but then we got to learn how to deal with accepting and sometimes tolerating the ideas. compromise is the word, i guess everyone should learn how to critic in a positive way hence yielding a better designed artwork. if one can only criticize badly without giving the right solutions (please walk the talk and don't just talk the talk) then it will just pull down the motivation in the team. and if one where to compliment other people's idea then make sure you praise it sincerely, assure that there's no jealously behind the motive.

i am learning and trying to apply as much of it before i step outside to the actual creative world. so being not so productive also leads to the delay of my dissertation. i am now like 2 weeks behind my personal schedule. already having a not so "user-friendly" supervisor and that my first proposal was rejected, i am now soak in fear. fearing that my second write up on the proposal will gain the same fate. however, i am determine to get most of the things done by the end of this week. hereby, i will try to finish up the second proposal to my dissertation, call the supervisor and hopefully he will then approve it. if these plan out well, then i am motivated to continue with the remaining parts of the dissertation.

well, i guess that's all for now. i also noticed that i haven't been updating that often. i just don't know why. something is definitely wrong with my life, lifestyle or maybe my room. i thing i just need to get rid of that certain thing or element, then it will give in the flow of positive chi. wish me luck in getting rid of the not so productive me.

till then people, hold that laughter and just smile for the moment.

Dance of June: Canggung

2009-06-30T23:59:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, people compare and compete just to prove something. so what are they trying to prove ? are they proving to themselves as a way to improve or try to prove that others are wrong. somehow we got to admit that life is indeed very competitive.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called canggung.

highly associated with the state of perlis, a state whereby is near to the border of thailand and once being ruled by thailand. the thai influence is strong and in thai language, 'canggung' means dancers. it is said to be inspired by the mak yong laut that was performed by the island folk in this area. hence it got a little resemblence to the dance mak yong but then this dance is always performed in couple, male and female taking part in teasing each other through a very entertaining dance steps. the ladies will usually hold a handkerchief in their hands while dancing. however, modern version of canggung also sees that male dancer at times will also use the handkerchief as part of the props in dancing canggung.

the musical instruments used the dance are the gong, violin, two rebana and a gendang ubi. canggung can be seen performed at wedding functions as well as joyous occasions in villages as well as public functions. personally canggung dance, combines the different dance genres that are available in the country such as inang, joget as well as mak yong. it's fusion of few dances creating a unique choreography.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance canggung from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample for this dance.

till then people, as long as you master it then it should be alright.

Compare & Compete

2009-06-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

previously on this is my life, managing the spaces well enough represents how able are you to manage your own life. design principles and the use of the white spaces, somehow not being applied by those who studied them

compare and contrast, two words that we heard often during the examination in which we are required to identify the differences and also at the same time to elaborate the similarities of one problem based on the situation. however in life, things are not easy as just answering questions and answers. it's more to that and it's complicated, this is why life is so interesting.

i have been bothered for the past two days and for the past one week, i have been busy finish up my assignment. it's not a last minute thing for me to like complete the whole assignment, only that the final stages required a lot of attention and effort put into it. i am happy and damn right satisfied by the outcome of it and even though after it's been critiqued and given a chance to change the design again, i decided to just submit it without changing a single thing.

the fact is, in life we don't go compare and contrast but instead we compare and then compete. life is so competitive now that you can even see it at the university level. well, i mean all the while i know that it's going to be competitive but then i just never ever thought of people showing it so obvious especially when we could see that they are no longer able to keep up with us. true enough, different level of thinking already give you the head start and to give more advantages yourself discipline and ethics will even drive you further.

i question this, what will happen when one's creativity being challenged and he or she loses the ability to compete ? most of the time, proclaiming that how "creative", "remarkable" or "sell able" of an idea could be but then we saw it lost in translation. lost in terms of when they tried to transfer the idea into the actual thing they have been working on. so, once you know you are defeated creatively what more can you say and on what basis do you want to argue ? bow down and humbly take a step backwards. it's alright, after all there's always plenty of room to learn and improve for the fact that no one is good at everything.

you see comparison and competitiveness are two good things in life only that it has to be the same level for all the opponents. if one is of a lower level, then it will not be fair to compete and never in chance to even compare.

there's a lot of thing going on, and that one thing i learn is to just give in for about 6 more months and then that's it and start a fresh life again. the university life is not as what i used to see it anymore. just want to compare and compete, and not here to learn and improve our life. there goes the sincerity, especially to ourselves. question that, give it a thought and evaluate this "compare and compete thing".

well, i guess words will not fully represent the issue that i am facing at the moment. however with some advices given by people who i consider real sincere friends and not competitors, i'll just make sure that i will never again to bring personal matter and work matter into one. from now on, it's nothing more than just an assignment. nothing more than that, and hopefully everyone will just move on and for god sake prep themselves ready for the industry if they ever think of stepping into the competitive world of Advertising.

till then people, i learnt my lesson today for not organizing my life well enough.

White Spaces

2009-06-20T13:49:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, tension. people grouping themselves, some being isolated and some being treated without any respect at all. it's part of the survival skill, that sometimes only the strongest will survive. as this happens, people will turn to all kinds of ways just to get what they want in order to survive in the harsh reality of this world.

stress and tension. i guess i got to learn how to breathe in and out, calming down my body. the still in the process assignment really got me. up till now, i am being filled with fear. resting in me, waiting for the slightest time bomb to explode and then i will know i'll be gone by then. destroyed just like that. this is why, i need some space to just revive my old self. the one that i know will make it work no matter how tough the challenge is.

for every design student it is thought that in every masterpiece of work you created or would i say designed, there need to be white spaces created out to give a balance of the used of different elements in it. having too many elements crowding that one piece of artwork, will make the creative artwork cluttered and no place to breathe. just like if there's heavy use of text in the design then a white space is needed to give some area to breathe and for the eyes to relax. this will ease the viewer and making the viewer not so tense when admiring the masterpiece.

true enough, i think i need my white space. as i said, i am somehow losing touch on the artistic aspect and worst is i am now in the midst of not believing myself. i think i'll need the white space to find my inner instinct back. sometimes i wonder whether i am just expanding the problems that i encounter or just that i am bound to like this sort of thing.

taking the white spaces and apply it into the reality, people just ignore what has been taught. in the house, whenever there's empty available space somehow they will fill it with things that i don't even know how to categorize. here's a space, push it in and then just leave it like that. no maintenance and as time goes by it turns into junk. you see, this is the part where people just take things for granted. ignoring the white spaces will just clutter your life.

well, i will stop here for now. i think i need to rest ? or perhaps do something that will take my problems away and be gone forever. i need to rejuvenate myself again. can somebody, anyone please give me a helping hand ? just like what my friends told me, it's just till end of this year and then it will be over.

till then people, are you spacing out or spacing in ?

Drama Club Registration

2009-06-16T18:16:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, one got to do the 15 minutes of fame in order to be recognized by the people around them. depending on the duration of time given, 15 minutes of fame is all you have to make the good or bad impression. after all, the first moment you are in the spotlight people will be judging you constantly.

i turned off the music player, just as i am starting to write this entry. life up till now is pretty much controllable except for one or two things in which i see it not coming the way that i thought it would be. i have been little moody for the past weekend, sometimes thinking about life and as always it brought me from the past till the future. at one glance, i looked back at all the memories that i have created as well as the one that i bound to attract in the future.

life is all about reality and nothing more than that. today, i came into this stage of play that is full of actors and actresses which complete my blog. as the drama i face wasn't intense enough, now it has spill over to people in the class. yes, the cast of the drama is indeed getting bigger and bigger. i guess, people just so want that 15 minutes of fame so much until they have begged themselves into my blog - the ever scandalous and heart-pounding blog.

let me see, in every college or university life there bound to be the faithful name "clique" and the clique will basically determine your whole life in the college life until you graduate. you will have to complete the assignments with the same clique from the very first semester up till the final one. and at times, rebellious people will cause chaos in the clique. as time goes by, you will see the true color of the people whom you consider friend. well, when one color is obviously more vibrant than the other one, it indicates that it is the time for the one that is being felt outshine in the group to make a cut off from that particular member. ouch and it hurts, but that is life in college or university, emotions put aside.

so now, poor little fellow. where will they be ? unwanted and being isolated, some prove to be a total failure though the study is not even over yet. one reason of their failure will lead to the development of another reasons. this would probably be the best time for them to stay passive and being treated not the way they wanted. how tough one can be, i do respect them for their survival skill. sometimes they can just be so happy with the way they are right now and totally not care about their future. so the question is now, do you look at life as only today or you look at it until the future ?

what am i going to do now ? do i help others in protecting their rights or do i just do what's best for me and the formed ally ? as much as i wanted to help, i think i have decided to just continue playing the game like anyone else would probably do. after all the one thing i learned that comes in handy right now is the power of ignorance, being passive will get you nothing.

well i think i better end here and continue with my assignments. the busy schedule is slowly catching up with my carefree life. guess, it's now till then end of the year. so i plead that everyone will just step up to the game and begin to take life seriously if you want to be in this world.

till then people, it's safer to be cliqued.

Your 15 Minutes of Fame

2009-06-13T00:52:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, i got myself into a detour. and it troubled me in deciding who to consider to be in my group. considering that it's the last long semester of my degree life, do i still want to give people free ride in the group assignments anymore ? i questioned that. sad to say, i made a decision just for the sake of the assignment. yes, i don't know whether it's the right judgment or just another one that goes along with my compassionate feeling.

i am full of thoughts and being kind expressive at the moment. i am also aware that it's late and there's a 8 am class tomorrow. however, i am going to let that go for the sake of undergoing this therapy. a therapy that i considered to be very healing both mentally and physically. i write blog. a lot of things in which occurred for the past 24 hours is making me realize that, a lot can be done just to still a moment of our attention. no doubt the world is full of pretentious people, i myself never deny that. it's just that as much as we want to pretend, sometimes we just have to put good creativity skill to it and making the "pretentious" act not so suspicious and not so obvious. at least in the end when you pretend, people will have the courtesy to forgive you while pretending.

i don't really know whether the problem that is resting in my mind (hopefully by the time i wake up it will be gone) has got to do me with or the problem is from someone else. good question. hence with this, i came to conclude a few acts that people that i know actually commit to these kind of acts (both positive and negative). it's just so fascinating to watch their actions.

first of all, for 15 minutes of fame people will actually ignore what has been said to them just to get your attention. true enough, when one was told directly on their face that: "hey, it's not appropriate for you to do that" " can you please undo it and throw that away". well, they can just walk away as if i am talking to my long gone grandfather. in the end although i am frustrated, i am glad to have helped someone to correct their mistake.

next, for 15 minutes of fame some people will break the rules just to get your attention. written black and white, also pasted a big board and some posters of the do (s) and don't (s) yet they will still not follow. thus bringing the question, why make rules when you can't obey it. why want to agree to it ? you see, that's the problem. trying very hard to make us remember how naive a person can be.

then for 15 minutes of fame at least one particular person i know will do something least important rather than to complete the one that is on top of the to do list. wasting precious amount of time, doing god knows what and then yet still complaining that the job can't be finished. no help given and then isolate them self. worst still, they will eventually destroy their help being awake the whole night rushing to undo the lost time that they wasted.

this one is good. for 15 minutes of fame, people will try to be horny and desperate. they will tend to look at the affectionate pictures of people and then will start to fantasize things. as much as it happens only when they are connected to the cyberworld, sometimes they got carried away and starting to creep people out. they just got uncontrollable. beware for that ! desperate people seeking for attention.

also for 15 minutes of fame, people will borrow clothes from you and wear as their own. not saying that i am a selfish jerk, sometimes when you know that you can have the right size and the ability to get new clothes for your wardrobe then go ahead. why want to result to loaning stuff from people ? clothes are like the next closest thing to your body. it's something very personal.

lastly, for 15 minutes of fame people will boost about their not so tangible achievements for exactly the 15 minutes they have. deep down inside, we know that we are much better than what they said. well, what to do ? we can just sit down and be their ears, listen to what they have to say and then think a moment. if relevant we remember it, if no then we just listen and then let it off. dear friend(s), life is all about non-abstract proof. let us see something in order for us to believe it.

ladies and gentlemen; you decide then the act that will bring rise to the 15 minutes of fame in one's life.

well, i think that's the much i can do for this post. my blog is slowly getting dead. drying off day by day. the weather if damn fucking hot and i blame it for destroying my sanity. going off to bed now, going for class later and will probably come back after the class just to rest myself. i just had enough. don't worry it's not a suicide letter, just a note to friends that know me well. for the moment is you, you and you !

till then people, are you ready for the 15 minutes of fame ?

The Curious Case of Rotten Apple & Spoilt Egg

2009-06-10T14:23:00.008+08:00

previously on this is my life, i attended my cousin's wedding the past weekend. a great time to just attend a formal function just as a reason to dress up nicely and an excuse to buy new clothes to complement the wedding dinner.

i was chewing some soft candy just right before i start to type out this entry. i was thinking what should i write about today. and then i decided to write out one problem that i am sort facing it right now and it happens every semester especially towards the beginning of it. i torn between who to pick to be in my group, and torn between in a very negative side.

one can be a very last minute worker in which will delay the timing and indirectly affecting the sanity in me and other group members as we will have to worry whether the job can be completed in time or ahead of time. on the other hand, there's this one particular person who thinks that love comes first will others simply can be executed by other group member. although obedient, work produced not up to my expectation.

thank god there's this flexibility to either have 4-5 people in a group. therefore if it's 4 people in a group then i will just not pick any of the two and if it's 5 then i will get myself into a serious problem and a very not so unwanted decision to make. so tell me, to do charity work again or to set the bird free into the sky ?

well i think i better stop here now. it's simply too hot to continue, and if the weather continues to be like this then i will have to find other cooler way to think. i am melting. before i end this, i was approached by two friends of mine wanting to borrow some of my clothes. in the first place i already told them that, you can't fit into xs. the second time they came knocking at my door, then i just said "can't really borrow you...it will distort the shape of the clothes". i am being viewed as a very bad person now ?

till then people, wake me up when i am lazy.

p.s. changed the banner already.

Blissful Union

2009-06-08T01:22:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, a trip to the zoo. animals, birds and plants. sight-seeing, briskly walking -a fun way to fill up the hot sunny day and definitely turned the feeling down into something fulfilling.

yes, as all of you all might have already know that i started the new semester one week ago. and that also for the past weekend i was pretty much occupied in attending wedding dinner of one of my cousins. so that alone took up my three days and the whole weekend. it's a time happens only once in a lifetime for that particular individual and at wedding times, once again family members and relatives will come together, gather around and then do some catching up.

it's a well worth weekend for me as i got to help out my aunt although nothing major that i did but still being involved felt really good. dinner was absolutely satisfying. with all the delicious dishes being served, i am glad to let myself experience the new definition of the typical chinese wedding dinner. from the first dish right up till the dessert, everything was prepared with taste and presentation being the priority. everybody had fun.

and to my surprise, my cousin (the bride) sang a song. "i have a dream" was melodiously presented by her. and at first i thought it's a playback or track from the audio cd. but then that definitely added a little excitement to the whole event.

so other than family affair, i am now starting to realize that it's crunch time again. being given only 3 weeks to complete one individual assignment, i am now in the moment whereby searching for muses to get the assignment done. planning to do some research, plan to plan and plan to work out the plan as creatively as possible. after all, it's something that has got to do with things that i love the most.

also, i went to get myself a new optical mouse and also a very cute usb hub. hopefully by upgrading the accessories it will help me perform better. oh yea, i have finally formatted my laptop and that now it's good as new again.

well i think i better stop here now. i am sleepy and a little tired. perhaps it's the result of being pretty much occupied the couple of days. tomorrow onwards and the 13 weeks to come, i am foreseeing a busier schedule. no time to laze around then.

till then people, the truth is always out there.

p.s. i am aware that i am suppose to change the banner.

Party Animals

2009-06-04T02:26:00.008+08:00

previously on this is my life, we took a look on the dance from the state of kelantan - mak yong. a dying art that indeed needs us to think twice and preserving it before it fades away from our eyes. true this dance, it combine different elements such as the siamese and javanese elements.

that's it. my semester break is over and now i am back in kl going through another new semester. this would be the last long semester (14 weeks) i'll be facing and then after that another short 7 weeks before i finally finish my study. i'll have to admit that the minute i started the journey back to kl, drama keeps on coming. up till today, it's a non stop situation for me whereby i got myself entertained, frustrated and at times sadden by the drama that i seen.

attended a lecture on monday, and came to realize that i got no more classes to attend until the coming friday. this left me to think what i am going to do for the 3 free days ? hunting for new clothes to wear at my cousin's wedding was one of the must do thing and definitely was my to do list. other than that, i barely got nothing else to do to fill up the time.

so on monday night itself, i suggested we go to the national zoo. i never been there and i would say the rest of the housemates have also never been to the national zoo before. we started early on tuesday and reached the destination at around noon. it's worth the travel as for 15 ringgit per entrance into the zoo, you got to see lot's of animals in there.

you got 2 options while you are in there, either you can take tram ride in which will give you a tour of the zoo in a smooth ride or you can just go on foot. obviously being me and walking fast, i have decided to walk and just slowly stroll from one display to another. two of my housemates joined me and the rest decided to go on their own phase.

before we actually started on our journey, we had a quick lunch at the cafe in the zoo. just right next to it, there's these group of deers also munching on their lunch can be seen from the place we sat.

so the real adventure starts after lunch and we walked right back to the main entrance to properly follow the trail. first stop after a few minutes of walking there's this opportunity for us to take pictures with this friendly snake and also a very well-groomed pony. but of course, you will have to pay rm10 to take pictures using your own camera and rm15 if you want it to be done professionally.

here's the best shot of us with the snake.

after that we pretty much followed the trail and the animals that i have seen are pretty much in order. well, not all of the pictures of the animals are being uploaded as i believe that it's better if we go and see it with our eyes and not only to that extend, you might get to touch some of the animals too. the two pictures above were taken right after lunch.

to give an idea of the zoo, you'll have like mammals. then continue by the savannah walk, ape centre, amphibian farm, reptile display and also a performing centre for live animal show. the live animal show lasted for about 30 minutes and it's really a package to the 15 ringgit that i paid.

and at last, after 5 hours being present in the zoo we got out and waited for the rest of the group and while waiting we bought some souvenir as a memory and took some pictures as well.

the souvenir which consists of: a folder, paper bag, coin and also notepads.

so, that's an entry about me visiting the national day, an activity that really kick start the new semester.

well, i think i better end here as i am getting real sleepy and hungry now. and as sneak peek on what's coming up this season/semester, i am going to post up much intensified stories that i come across with and new banner coming soon.

till then people, 6 months left to step up to the game and polish your act.

Dance of May: Mak Yong

2009-05-30T23:38:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, there's a lot of things that can be done in a week time. but then i realized that now one week seems to be very quick and that now it's near the end of that one last week of this semester break, i am glad to say that i indeed accomplished quite a lot of things for the one last week of this about to end semester holiday.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called mak yong.

the mak yong dance is popularly known throughout the northern region of this country and at times the influence of this dance can be seen spread across to the southern states of thailand. a performing art that is near to it's extinction, mak yong is declared by the unesco as a "masterpiece of the oral and intangible heritage of humanity". popular in the state of kelantan, this dance was banned by the local government for quite sometime until it has been revitalized recently to stop this performing art from dying in the eyes of the younger generation.

usually the purpose of this dance is to carry out a storyline through oral presentation as well as graceful body movements by the dancers. performed only to the royalties during the ancient time, mak yong is accompany by the traditional musical instruments such as gendang, gong, serunai and also strings instrument.

sad to say, today there are less than ten veteran mak yong performers. although there have been a few attempts to revive the art form, seasoned performers have noted a clear difference between the commercialised mak yong of urban dancers when compared with the movements of rural performers. not many young people are willing to undergo the rigorous apprenticeship so the art is now on the decline.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. below would be a video of the mak yong dance from youtube. enjoy the video and leave a comment if you want a song sample of mak yong.

till then people, are you ready for a new season of intense drama ?

For One More Week

2009-05-27T19:30:00.001+08:00

previously on this my life, birthday to the blog. three years old and still counting. different people definitely blog differently and the most important thing is to keep the content of your blog fresh and stay different from others. your own personal blog is to reflect you as a person.

initially i started to write this entry on sunday but then it got delayed due to one reason, in which i will reveal later. i'll have to admit that this month in particular i am blogging a little more less simply because there's nothing you really can write about when you are back at home. it's just so relaxing and serene scene here.

so the reason why i couldn't finish up this blog on sunday was due to the fact that i got a phone call from my housemates that they will be coming over to my place on monday, which was the next day itself. so i got panicky and immediately had to come up with plans on where to go. as i planned out the destination, i thought it would be a great day ahead. as usual i took them around the island, tried out food and visited interesting places. (will post up and entry about this when i get back to KL)

that was monday. as for tuesday i attended my nephew's birthday party. considering that was his first birthday party, it was planned big and i helped out my sister to put together the best birthday bash for her son. in the end it was well planned and everything turned out smoothly. (once again, i will try to have an entry of that party as well)

today is already wednesday and there are a lot of things to be done before i get myself back to KL. going out with my friends, format my laptop (which until today still haven't accomplish) and also sort out all the dirty laundry which i have accumulated for like 2 weeks.

despite the recent unhappy news about me, i realized that it's only an alphabet with a common symbol to it. and if you were to ask me honestly, i think getting a minus symbol to the alphabet was a good trade off. after all, i am trading my whole future with this A- grade. what more can i ask for, i said that it's really been a good experience and that it has already given me a solid foundation to step foot into the industry that i am pursuing. whatever it is, i am letting this issue away and just move on.

well, i guess that's all from me for the moment. and for the coming few days, i assume that there will be a lot of update just before i go back to Kl.

till then people, for now it's either this or that. so i choose this !

Three Wise Years

2009-05-16T23:08:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, finding the food hard to resist or would you rather go out and just taste the experience on your own ? i certainly enjoyed eating all those dishes, and thus making the holiday a little more well spent.

3 years and counting.

as you can see, this blog is already 3 years old. started way back on the year 2006, i myself can't believe that i am still here after 3 years of the intense drama that fill this blog. so many stories have been told and i can bet you that the i will definitely continue update this blog with more and true real life encounters.

the aim of this blog, changed i would say. from a little secret diary it has expanded into a place whereby people come and read about interesting drama that is surrounding me. well, i'll have to admit that without the drama expressed out by people that i've known then this blog is nothing more than just another blog in the blog sphere.

one thing that i couldn't help to notice is that the ways people do to get our attention to view their blog. some of them might be using multiple languages, some using a lot of pictures, some just a one-hit-entry blog (which is a total waste of the virtual space), some just bombard the blog with words, some will fill it with juicy drama and some will just irritate us by posting a short entry in which not even worth us clicking on their link.

obviously i am now an avid blogger and it's becoming part of me. what more can i say, it helps me to improve in a lot of aspects of my life. so i guess some people must really know how to use blogging to its advantage.

till then people, turning three will definitely be wiser.

Mission: Food Trail, Version: ?

2009-05-14T23:22:00.014+08:00

previously on this is my life, feeling lazy and not updating my blog. it seems that life back at home is not that dramatic and intense compared to the one i have in KL. however, despite all the relaxation that i am in, i managed to change the new banner and just eat.

this brings me to today's entry. let's see, one must really try all the great food available in penang. and to be honest, only local people here will know how to dig out the best kept secret, hidden treasure of the penang island. i know everywhere you turn to, there will be plenty of hawker stalls selling different kind of food which indeed synonymously associated with the island.

so as you can see, the adventure to this trail took us to 6 different places and it's being accomplished just only in a day. make sure you start with an empty stomach. ready to feast your appetite ?

for those local penangnites out there, before you scroll further down can you just take a moment and try to guess what food best represents the each top secret location (give your answer on the comment section) ? six places we travelled, and it took us about 6 hours to taste all the delicious and yummy food. definitely worth satisfying your cravings. this expedition will not be successful without the company of my friends.

so sorry but i'll have to advice you to exercise regularly after committing to this food trail. it's oily, it's spicy, it's creamy and who cares as long as it's yummy.

top secret location 1: balik pulau

when it comes to this place, there are only 2 things. durian and laksa. it' not the durian season yet, so we indulged ourselves with a hot creamy bowl of siamese laksa. better known as the lemak laksa, it's a mixture of fish curry with coconut cream served with glass noodles and fresh vegetables. this is a to die for dish when you are in penang, and it's only rm 2.50 a bowl. no pictures here, but then the journey continues to location 2.

top secret location 2: taman free school

ok, here you can get deep fried fritters. crispy and munchy, try the banana, green bean and sweet potatoes one. but wait, there's more. one thing good if you are in penang you can get the sticky rice cake fritters. this 'thnee kuih' sandwich between a yam and sweet potato, gives out a unique taste of culinary. crunchy on the outside, once you bite it, the sticky rice cake already melt in your mouth. prices varies from rm 0.80 to rm 1.20 per piece.

different kind of fritters.

that's what i am talking about, the sticky rice cake oozes out like a hot yummy lava.

top secret location 3: the sleeping buddha temple (pulau tikus)

so nobody really knows about this, but then if you want to try out the original thai coconut ice cream this is a place for you to get it. what's better than to enjoy a cup of ice cream on the hot sunny day. priced at only 2 ringgit for a cup, the ice cream contains toppings like ground peanuts, sweet corn and also 'atap chee'.

the creamy coconut ice cream.

top secret location 4: waterfall

few minutes drive down the road, waterfall is a place for you to quench your thirst. one whole chilled coconut please. take your time and slowly enjoy. although some might say that other place like abu siti lane is famous for this, i think waterfall still is the best. you got to sit down while enjoying the cold coconut water and one thing that is missing at abu siti lane would be that the coconut isn't chilled. so the price of quenching your thirst is only rm 3.

top secret location 5: esplanade

mee goreng ? coconut milkshake ? mee goreng here is the indian muslim version of fried noodles. spicy and addictive, the mee goreng is topped with cuttle fish. well, this version is slightly different from other places available in penang and is a little more expensive (rm 3.50 per plate). at the same location also, you can have a coconut milkshake to accompany this dish. this is another thing that is to die for and i am in love with this drink. i am going there for the shake again. the coconut milkshake is however, cheap. it's only 2 ringgit a cup.

the spicy mee goreng.

the coconut milkshake.

top secret location 6: padang brown

well, this place you can either try the yong tau foo or lok lok. so we decided to have lok lok and it's sort of like steamboat, only that the food here is placed on the bamboo stick. all you have to do is to just dip the stick into the boiling water till the food is cooked. a kind of food that will gives you the pleasure of eating and when you have it with the must have gravy, it's a union of great taste and heritage.

the various food on the bamboo stick.

the must have gravy, the pounded peanut gravy.

well, i guess that's all for now and i am now full. this is what i have been doing for the past one week, filling my appetite for the sake of the blog. who knows, next time another version of the mission will be carried out.

till then people, eat to live or live to eat - you decide ?

I'm Late

2009-05-10T03:17:00.003+08:00

previously on this my life, it's just a week and i decided to blog about the last day of my internship. the final working day being at the agency, gifts and the atmosphere also not forgetting the mood that i am feeling at that time. i would probably say that it's kind of a happy and at the same time sad moment. i wonder they have 'happy and sad feeling' put into a word ?

don't worry, i am not late for work neither am i late for classes. i am just feeling late, lately. i have been indulging myself in the comfort that my home provides me. soaking myself with relaxation and for a moment i can really not think about the drama or would i say the negativism that i bound to encounter if i were to be at my KL house right now. happy to say, i am feeling great being at home.

i got good food surrounding me, and the best part is i got to eat home cook meal. i can hang out with my friends here in which i can talk and chat to and also i got to go to places that i want to go. well, one downside of coming back here to my beloved hometown is that, it's making me missing my internship so much. i miss getting up at 7.15 in the morning, prepping myself to work, deciding what to wear and then deciding what to eat during lunch hour. it's been a norm to me now and getting use to all those routines seems to be not a problem. a schedule that probably i can handle and for name of god, it requires discipline.

ok, the real reason i am blogging right now is that i have not been updating since last week. so i am getting late and sort of behind schedule. i know i must not take this holiday as an excuse. but then in the end, i managed to change the banner, the music featured in this blog and do one post just to show that i am pretty much still aware of the existence of this blog.

well, i guess that's all for me now and i bet you that the coming entry is something to be worth waiting for. it's late now and i am going to sleep. and probably will wake up after lunch hour. so together i am hoping to update more often, especially when you are sort of enjoying your vacation.

till then people, it's officially a laid-back moment.

Selling Yourself Well Enough? I Want More

2009-05-05T00:37:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, it's that time of the month where i feature a dance for that month. i briefly talked about kuda kepang, one of the dances that i never really got the chance to learn. typing out the previous entry really brought back the good old memories. the time whereby i danced and performed on stage with my friends.

well, i know it's been quite some time since i updated and as you all might already know, i have finally completed my internship at bates141. supposed i finished it like 3 weeks earlier but then i extended, stay on to help out. so the final week of my internship kept really kept me busy all the time. not only this applied to the work but then also when i got home, i had to continue to finish up something special for the people in the agency as a farewell gift from me. just like the picture posted on top, it was a parting note that i designed and emailed it to all of the people in the agency right at the last hour of my stay at bates141.

on top of that, i made like bookmark with my personalized messaged printed on it to my colleagues in my department. it helps to remind them that i actually enjoyed my experience there and that working with them was indeed a remarkable learning process. i gained a lot from just by observing and now, as i look back on it, i am kind of missing it already.

what more can you ask ? to be and experience the field you are studying. honestly, if you are not passionate enough of what you are studying then seriously don't bother working in the field of what you are studying.

i am not going to boast about my experience but then i will be humble in telling my experience to those who are willing to know. i got people kept on asking me about some other, more tangible reward resulting from my extension. but then i put a comma and think, do i really need it knowing that the people in the agency want me back once i graduate ? i mean the director already voices out her favor, and i guess it's all up to the offer and me in deciding whether i should go back.

putting that aside, stepping into that agency already proved to be a good thing to my resume and that sincerely, i really like working in this industry. i love the stress, i love the challenges and most important of all i love to be creative. it's heaven.

so as 30th of april was my last day interning there, personally i got a pair of socks from my manager as a farewell gift. she thanked me for extending and helping out. then to my surprise, colleagues in my department gave me a gift voucher from topman. how sweet and nice, now i guess i'll have to shop again. i really really thank them for the gifts. although the experience that i gained was already worth more than anything else, the gifts showed that they do will miss me when i leave.

well, i guess that's all about my internship at bates141. the adventure that took me 4 months to complete and upon completion, i am glad to have gained that experience. once again i would like to thank most of the people in the office for helping me building up this much needed strong foundation to start off my career.

till then people, keep working for your goals !

Dance of April: Kuda Kepang

2009-04-28T22:00:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, a look into why i always go back home right after the last lecture, exam or in this case my internship.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called kuda kepang.

this popular dance originates from the javanese island, and no doubt is synonymous with the state of johor. the dance had strong links with spirit possession and often dancers went into a trance-like state. this dance is performed in accompaniment to a rich and exotic rendition of traditional music played with indigenous instruments such as gongs, tambourines and angklungs.

kuda kepang is dance using the 2-d carving of a horse to represent the kuda. at times, other than using wood carvings for the horse, a lighter version of the horse will be made using straw mats. usually performed by male dancers, the modern version sometimes contains female dancers performing together with the male dancers.

the beat and dance step of kuda kepang run closely by the javanese beats. originates from the javanese straits, the elements of this dance can be seen and heard distinctively. it is said that this dance served as a form ritual that boost the spirit of the warrior to fight in the war. this dance usually will be performed right before the war to ensure that they embodied the spirit to fight like a horse during the war.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. so sorry, but for this round i can't find a good video to be featured in here.

till then people, rest enough ?

Between The Fences

2009-04-26T14:26:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, feeling the same again as the beginning. although it's coming to an end, there's just so many things that left me to think about it. on a brighter side of note, despite all those feelings about work i decided to just treat myself to a very classy sort of meal.

the weather is so damn freaking hot now. the heat is driving me crazy and it's so hot until it will affects the way you function. i watched the latest episode of grey's anatomy and from last friday onwards i have been so inspired to just write an update here. it seems that as we grow older, we learn to see things adult way.

i was exposed to the working environment and dramatic enough when i come back home everyday after work, i let myself to another things that will definitely bother my mind. yes, it's adult enough for me to say that i am living with another 9 beings which i doubt that they are also adults. sometimes, the more i see the more i know how selfish most of them can be. common little things that needed the attention from all the occupants were neglected, but then when it comes to their personal belonging which in the first place they put it out to share they take good care of it.

house chores, which you people have seen me complaining about it still no solutions or initiative taken by them (permanent blindness for not being able to look at the duty roster), simple things like pushing in the chairs after using it was also not being able to fulfill by their ability (which makes me think what kind of disability they have), throwing the rubbish into the bin without spilling it out seems to be an ordinary practice, and that's just the tip of the iceberg.

you see, when it comes to personal things they became selfish. and when it's common they will just don't care about the well being of others. these were only simple problems in the house, just imagine how they are going to deal problems at work ? it's sad and i don't even know whether the rest actually cares about their future. already living with one or two failures (officially acclaimed by me) will just keeps on reminding me on not to be like them.

i must really thank the rest for showing me that i am so much more different then them, and that i am unique. they way i live my life, i am glad to have trained and disciplined myself to be a good human being that follows my principles of life easily. thanking my parents for bringing up me this way and not the other way round that i have seen.

well, i think this is all for now as i am getting a writer's block once again. perhaps it's the weather that is limiting my ideas. hoping that by having this entry will just remind to be better than the rest and to do things right. that's just how i am going improve. sorry, for their negativity.

till then people, another dimension in life ?

Check Point

2009-04-21T22:55:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, life is definitely a tour. it takes you to here and there, just like my experience interning in bates141. although i am still attached to the agency, officially my first semester of the final year has officially ended. supposed the last entry was all about my routine somewhere at work, but then it seems i got detoured.

it's getting back to the same thing again. i am feeling kind of sad as i see that the trend is returning. i am talking about work, and from the past two days i have been pretty much doing nothing at work. ok, not absolutely nothing but then it's really little. i am not going to continue about it as what i did last time on this blog.

doing nothing sometimes will give you the time to actually take a pause out of your life and to think. in the spare time, i read people's blog and somehow it got me feeling so quiet suddenly. i read how people being treated so nicely at their company they attached to, i got to see how people actually are so talented in managing their blog and i got to see how some people progressing in their lives. i just took a moment and again to ask whether what i am doing here. worth the presence or it's just a favor. i just don't know. one intern got job offer by the agency and the other intern, which is me, congratulated her.

you see, it's so weird to see how one can be so influence easily. or was it the fact that the one can't really manage their instilled principles. once, i was told that "returning to the agency is totally impossible" but then now, just couldn't resist. things are different and in the end it just ended up with what you want in your life.

i am finally realizing that the way i am treated here was totally different from others of my peers. they seems to be happy in the end for a way that they learned a lot of new things and were treated just like an intern. the thing that made me so want to question more was this statement "we are here not to do this kind of stuff...here to learn....". it shook me just like that.

whatever it is, i am just glad to be in that agency and happily counting down my days. once it's up, i am done and i will walk out proudly with the new experience that i have gained. no doubt, it shown me the both side of the industry. but then once again i think like any other advice, the best tips here is just to be yourselves. who you are will just determine how will you will go in this adventure that is dubbed tough, stress, fulfilling, creative, whatever you want to call it.

on something not related and something happened during the weekend, i indulged myself in this fancy restaurant. a spanish taste, something that is totally different to me and indeed worth trying for the experience. it was all about celebrating one of my friend's birthday and hence decided to go to elcerdo, a restaurant that specializes in roasted pork. pig or piglet, they have it. agreed that it's priced slightly more but then once a while is alright. for less than hundred ringgit, we had ice tea cooler, half a piglet (roast to perfection), side dishes like green salad and wedges, house specialty sausages, seafood paella (risotto?) and lastly a shot of lemon vodka, courtesy from the restaurant itself. the pictures are shown in a video format, slide show only. i hope it will give a clearer view on what i had experience.

well, i think better stop here now. for the time being just to get the sadness and emo-ness out of me, i am giving myself a few projects to do. first one would be project wall - plainly just me thinking of ideas to beautified the walls in my room, second one called project farewell - doing something as a parting gift for the people in my department.

till then people, i guess you have to wait for good thing in life.

My Sticky And Sweet Tour

2009-04-17T09:49:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, let's see it from the shortest perspective as possible or take a look at the thing as a whole ? i took a moment to think that whether i am on the right track and although i might feel a little upset, at least i'll be promising myself a better future.

i am now feeling relief and officially another semester has past just like that. a fourteen weeks which seen me interning at bates141, and now i still do. just for two more weeks, i am then out of that place and really looking forward for my well deserve rest at home. so back to the story, it's end of another semester and it has been hell of a tour. true enough, you will still have fans following you, garments to arrange, and some creativity work put to it.

the semester has been quite of a competitive, i would say ? people around me starting to compare and reported on the experiences. but then, do you think i care that much ? just like what's been a norm in the house, i just don't give a damn care about what you people were saying. i mean, if it's got a little to do with me then i'll listen. and if it's like out of the field that i am in it, then i will probably listen and then ignore it. sometimes it's just so freaking annoying to listen to their crab, and it makes me wonder whether will they be as successful as what they preached or what they promised to themselves.

officially over means that i don't have to think about academic for the moment while enjoying the remaining days in the agency to the fullest. i have submitted my final report of the internship and really feels good about. to be honest, i am kind of shocked by the thickness of my report. at first i thought it will be like 30 pages to the max, but then in the end it exceeded my expectation.
i am so light and free now. finally i can just put the books aside.

i am sure with the ending of the semester, there will definitely be another round of drama next semester. i am still deciding on the grouping thing for next semester's assignments. maybe for now i deserve a little moment for me to just not think about it yet. every time i think about it, i got so sick that it will deteriorate my health.

well, i guess this is all for the moment. some updates on me and the week that i have past. work is still work, house is still house but with more drama and full of "i don't care" people, karma is still KARMA and that if the don't want to not care then we shall see.

till then people, it's still the same fucking faces that i have seen before.

Becareful Of What You Wish For

2009-04-14T18:51:00.006+08:00

previously on this is my life, the reason why i am still doing my internship instead of concentrating on the report writing. somehow and yet another sacrifice that needed to be made in order to be successful in life. and one thing for sure in life it's all about ethics. how you carry yourself, self etiquette.

i know i am not suppose to be doing this right now, and i know i am suppose to be writing and trying to finish up my report. the day started excitedly for me. as i woke up, i am so damn motivated in completing my final report for the internship and on the brighter side i am at least a day nearer in going back to my beloved hometown. a day that brings hope of learning new things at work and receiving my evaluation form from my supervisor.

i don't know. once i got the form back, i am so curious to know what did i get. what are my marks. i tried like many other ways trying to reveal the marks and making sure that the sealed isn't broken. well well, after many attempt i guess the lights in the office was just not bright enough. so i came back home, keeping a confident face and once i looked at the marks i was like this couldn't be true. and in my supervisor mind, and what one of my friend said, you deserved what you deserved. seriously there's no point in arguing the truth.

i mean as for now, although as much as marks are concern here i am taking a look at the long term. and after a much thinking through i think the evaluation given wasn't that bad afterall. although i can't really say that i am very good but then at least i am good at what i am doing right now. i talked with a few people and that one things that made me realized from the conversation was to question. now that i am having this problem, the possible next step is for me to question. at least it's good for me to get a feedback on my performances far in the agency.

well, i am feeling much better now and not going to pile up the report. so i am now once again rejuvenated and motivated to complete the final report and let it be done. and once it's done, i will not try to think about it but perhaps i will cherish the experience and remember the thinsg that i have learned during my internship period.

till then people, mom said not to show that sour face.

Not Last Yet

2009-04-11T22:32:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, when you are not happy you let it out. when there's something bothering you, you must try not letting it affect you. in fact, that's the exact same thing i did the other. and once everything was being written, it just got better. when we desired certain things to happen, sometimes we just have to put it into words and realizing it using our own imagination. something very abstract and hard to digest, but then once you got it, you just going to like it.

supposed that yesterday would be my last day interning at Bates141. but then, somehow i decided to extend and with that, i think it's a wise move. it's like the longer i stay the more i learn. the more responsible person i become. i honestly say that this industry is tough and full of demands. if you are a week person, i am not saying that you will not survive but then i will advice you to train yourself to be stronger.

one thing that really needs your sacrifice working in this industry would be time. however, if you know how to manage the time well then time will not be an issue for you. ever since the past two weeks, i have decided to stay extra longer on every friday. one reason it's because it's friday and i don't have to wake up early the next day. true enough, when you made sacrifices you will gain something out of it. it's like staying back gives me plenty of oppurtunities to learn. i am so glad that i got to do the things i love.

i really don't know whether i should take it in all things people have to said about their experience nor am i going to relate it to me. as a matter of fact, first of all they are like in the different thing that i am doing. the core thing is that, you study this and you do the things you studied. it's just so simple. i sometimes do wonder whether they are passionate on it or not. and if they are not, then sorry to tell you that they will not survive in whatever industry that they are about to explore in the future. and the love thing will not come overnight. it has to be build and give time for it to grow.

well, i think i better stop here for now. i am really at lost now. there's been too many things for me to worry recently. and a smart move would be to only worry on things that are at top priorities. so for the moment i am concentrating on my report writing. positive or not, next week it will turn out beautifully for me. i will give my 100% in my work as i don't have to care for academic for the moment. it will be ok once the final report is submitted. as for now, going to clean myself, freshen up and then continue with the report. maybe tomorrow will update again if i am too stress out.

till then people, promises can't be broken as a promise is not a physical thing.

She Says Negative Attracts

2009-04-06T21:28:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, it's always about working towards your goal in life and when one doesn't really put effort in achieving what they wanted then they will forever not going to get it. it's just as simple as you showing something negative that will favor the unlikeliness to happen.

as again an update from the previous entry, you guys might have known that i extended my internship at bates141. well, not really i extend it but the as a request by few people in the agency - i decided to stay on and help out. as i am working towards my goal of life (the future) i see the extension as something that will really benefit me later. work now, play later. and on the really positive side, it's only for a couple of weeks then i am officially off from my industrial attachment.

i know i used to grumble and counting down the days when i end my internship but then i guess there's something else install for me. now that this is the final week of the 'actual' internship, i guess right after this week i can fully concentrate on working itself and for a while i will just put academic aside. one more thing i really really wish to put away and if can vanish it from my sight in the agency would be the cold treatment by this evil ice queen. a name that i have dubbed specially for her.

everyone in the agency is starting to treat me right and although i am only an intern there, that doesn't mean that you can be another bitch over at your desk. can you just please smile and talk politely when communicating in the office ? sometimes your harsh body language also shows that you are mean and cold. it's not good you know. first of all, think about your health. do you want to let this negative attitude of yours to deteriorate your personality ? do you then want it to spread this disease that you are so proud of carrying and pass it on to others by making them unhappy ? ask yourself. as i know, you are here to work and not show faces.

can i at least gain a little self respect by you ? hang on, i believe in KARMA and by saying this is up to you if you want to respect me or not. i am ok as i got nothing to lose other than to see how one person can turned out so badly. blame it on the parents upbringing ? or as an adult, it's just you showing that kind of attitude of yours. before i actually end this entry, i would like to say welcome to my blog and i don't know why but then congratulation on making into my blog.

may KARMA bless you !

well, i guess that's all for now. i just need to unleash the unhappiness in me and mind you whatever i have written is nothing more than the truth. the truth that i have been experiencing in the agency for the past 13 weeks. letting KARMA take its course, i am now just going to get myself freshen up and then continue with my report writing. there's no point letting the negativity of hers into me. no use getting sad !

till then people, if one can't change then what can we change ?

How Bad Do You Want IT ?

2009-04-05T16:13:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, a look into the third dance featured in this blog. we roamed across to the east malaysia and experience the ngajat dance. it's so organic and so earthy dance. however, the elements in the dance itself will sure to give us a slice on the life of the ethnic group in sarawak.

in life, it's always about how bad do you want it. before i begin and expressing all out my thoughts, let me just announce that i will be extending my internship period till end of this month. supposed i can pack all my belongings and bags, and leave the house after the 10th of april but then i guess i will not leave so soon as people actually requested me to stay on to help out. as long as i get to learn more, i really think that i got nothing to lose.

so how bad do you want it ? they wanted me as because the manager will be on vacation, leaving my supervisor to be super busy to cover the manager's work load. i want it to be in the agency so bad as it will really boost my resume. sometimes, i wonder how bad the others want it. take study as example. how well you want to excel in your academic ? do you always put in all your heart and soul when doing your work ? do you associate or try to link what you do as an intern to what you are studying ? i know there's just many questions if i were to continue. but then it's just better for me to list of ways of giving out the ways of how bad you want it, and of course from my personal point of view.

i think first thing one must really uphold is self discipline. i always believe that if one cannot really follow a simple rule, then don't expect them to handle things which are much complicated. it won't happen. try to motivate ourselves, be hard ourselves. never think of an easy way out whenever we are with other people. it's ok for us to only think for our self, with the condition that there's no one else for us to think about. when that time comes, it's ok to be selfish.

second thing on working towards our goal would be to confident. well, this is the key of showing people what we are actually made of. if we got no solid stand, then we will be viewed equally weak as others. being a confidence person means that we know our facts right and we keep on practicing so that it will make us feel better in handling similar situation.

another factor to consider is to have a positive thinking. always feel good of things happening in life. and when one question you, then try to answer them in a positive way. and when we are being given negative comments or criticism, then find a way to turn that negative into a positive one. with this, we won't have to be depressed by what they said. if we keep on keeping the negative things in our mind, it will weaken our energy hence making us feeling even worst.

being proactive and not passive will also narrow done the gap of us achieving our goal. you don't just expect the goal to just happen without us actually working hard for it. stand up for our own right, but with facts to support. say things out loud, if we know that it's the truth. and always take the effort to just do it without people actually telling you to do. you see, i have been surrounded by this passive thing for quite sometime, and i just see how it affected some of them.

these are like just four of it. but then if we were to really analyze it, then it can further be expanded to a lot a lot of criteria. now, is it very hard to just uphold one positive value in life ? just like what happened yesterday night, an unacceptable reason given and must i just be happy about it ? i am sad and angry to just that why they are this way. didn't they ever think of the connection and the time spent together ? some will just be as always, the way they like it. running away from a "must" and when their time come, they expect us to throw them an unforgettable event. don't want to be involved. you see, this is why i believe that people will definitely change either for the est or for the worst. and in this case, there's the third factor - still the same. it's either they are still the same or have become worst. so this marked that there's no improvement in their life.

well, i think i better stop here now. this entry is not suppose to be about all the above, it's more on me saying out my personal stuff but i have expressed it out on others. anyway, i got to go and start on my report writing and hopefully will update soon.

till then people, are living the life you want ?

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Dance of March: Ngajat

2009-03-31T23:12:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, there's no cleaning lady in the house and the house smell nothing more than dirty and messy. having the new perfume, doesn't mean that it will turn the house into a garden of fresh roses that gives out a very refreshing scent.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called ngajat.

the dance ngajat is popularly danced by the iban ethnic group from the east malaysia. this dance is a must during the gawai celebration which marks the end of the harvesting season of the people in the land of hornbill. at one glance the dance is actually an interpretation of hunter and hornbills.

male warriors will dance and take up the role of the hunter whereas the softer and delicate steps of the hornbill is being portrayed by the female leads. the male dancer will be holding a shield carved in floral motif and also a machete. as for the female dancers, they will wear an elaborate costume decorated with two feathers-made hand carried props to further bring out the representation of the hornbill.

for this dance, it is accompanied by the melody of sape as well as some drum beats. as mentioned, this dance is popular in the state of sarawak and no doubt it has been synonymously linked with malaysia.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. below would be a video of the ngajat dance from youtube. enjoy the video and leave a comment if you want a song sample of ngajat.

till then people, are you afraid of being incompetence ?

My Scent Your Sense

2009-03-29T23:51:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, good deed. giving back to the society and whatever you want to call it, it is always good to do some charity. people sometimes will beg, they might even degraded themselves or worst still they will cheat when they got no choice all for the sake of showing us how not capable they chose to be.

yes, get your senses right. this particular week has been about scent and senses. first up was the craze of purchasing perfume. i got mine about 3 weeks ago and now it seems that my housemates are on the look out for that. so in the end each of them bought like one or two fragrances so that they can wear it and i guess by doing that it will cover up something else in return.

another thing that once again ignite my senses would be the fact that i am sharing the house bathroom with 3 other people, in which they are older than me. strangely, i have to clean the toilet most of the time. i guess it's just so natural for me to keep things and places that are related to me just neat and tidy. unfortunately there's no sense of "ok, it's my turn now to clean" attitude shown by them. being like the oldest here and not showing the right example for us to lead. sometimes living in this place give me a glorious feeling. there's nothing i can learn from the elders and to make it less interesting there's no challenge. at times, they will have to turn to me for direction and answers when encounter with tough decision. well, as long as i am strong and good i can just ignore whatever that is happening outside my room.

today i spent nearly two hundred purchasing new external hard disk for myself. i planned not to get it but then when the DVD writer won't work, somehow it's time for to just go and buy and quickly back up all my files before my laptop worsen. so now i am able to free up to 30gb of space in my laptop and in few days time i think i will format it and hopefully by then there will be no viruses and my writer will be able to use again.

well, i think that's all for now. i short update on my weekends that i see it as not so productive. been kind of little not hardworking as i took most of the time to just think how i am going to miss my internship. oh yea, i did my part too for the earth hour and i guess now i can feel that the earth is a little cooler now.

till then people, got your senses right ?

Hello, My Name Is Charity

2009-03-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, another great movie in which i can easily relate to my real yet dramatic life. it seems that the characters are like so familiar and watching confessions of the shopaholic indeed making me to once again look at the people surrounding me.

well, it's another weekend again. listening to spice girls and kylie minogue and got a whole lot more to do. but then slowly, the workload is going off one by one. and in no time i will be completing my internship at bates141 and then will head back home and just enjoy. i must confess that i will be missing this. walking by all the fashion boutiques, all the stores and outlet are like one motivation the drive that makes me want to go to work every morning. it's a fun experience nevertheless of the kind of attitude people shown in the agency. well, proudly i took the challenge and make the most out of it.

so as i was walking towards the entrance to catch a bus after work, two lady approached me. yes, two bitches from china came to me. so in my mind i was thinking of these two things. first, they were either asking for direction or secondly, they would asked some money from me. hoping that it was the first one it ended up with the second one that i at that time, was just ready to take the 10 ringgit note and just give it to her. well, what to do. sometimes people look at me as a caretaker and sometimes as an idol. giving back to the society is just my nature.

so with her heavy accent of the language she spoke, i ended up asking her whether she need money. and to my not already surprised mind she said yes. so i gave her 10 ringgit, thanking god that i left about 20 ringgit in my wallet. she knew it was very little and yes two honey bitches, ten ringgit will not get you any clothes in mid valley nor the gardens. but then with 10 ringgit you can go down and buy a loaf of bread and some jam/ butter or whatever to you liking and eat it. you see, when you are without any money you can't really be a chooser. just take it and be grateful.

not saying thanking, the other bitch said "err, ten rinngit wasn't enough". i was like OMG, with the picture of my jaw dropping out, imagining in my mind. damn you. i am being like a living saints here and how dare you to even said that. in the first place, i know you two are like chinese hookers that came here to spread some HIV. so i told her, if you want you take it if not then you can always give it back to me. what, don't tell you two bitches expected me to go down to the atm and withdraw money for you ? oh honey, i am not that dumped. and honestly, please come up with new tricks that appeals to me. oh gosh, dumb people.

so now my question is, if they intentionally trying to cheat me then good luck to them as my forever powerful KARMA god will hunt them down and destroy them. and if it's true you bitches needed the money then i did a good deed by saying 2 lives from starving to death (oh, me so divine). well, it' not like i am saying this in a way that i was being cheated. but instead it's a good thing for me to observe and say this is life. lastly, that two chinese bitches stop approaching people and begging for money ok ? take a piece of advice from me, a person that is being worship and go do something good and benefit and work hard for the money (now, must i let you listen to donna summer's song ?).

well, that's all for now and will be back soon. going to get some chores done and lesson learnt. sorry for the long entry. but i just think you guys should just know about this. just so weird to always see me doing charity to everyone.

till then people, it's good to be a charity !

Must I Confess ?

2009-03-25T00:05:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, what can i say ? getting high and it's weekend. high in the sense that i have been spending money on stuff like food. been eating expensively during lunch hour for like a week, and now to make it even better it took over my weekend budget for meal. anyway, when it comes to food i give an exception.

so for today's entry (more of a review than a personal expression ), i must first thank one of my friend who is interning in the magazine publication company. thanks to her, i got to watch the much awaited confessions of a shopaholic. well, before i begin with the movie review let me just briefly (and in one paragraph) try to sum up my day.

it all started with a heavy rain and that's the time when i woke up and realized that, this not going to work. i mean, i picked out clothes to wear to work but then happily it rained. so, to make useful of other clothes that i bought i decided to layer it as it will kept me warm in the office. thank god, putting all the pieces together in the end put a smile on my face. just the way i like it, i walked out home embracing the little raindrops. as i reached office and kind of expected, there's nothing much for me to do and spent the whole day surfing the internet. well, one finding and i got to know one person's blog. interesting the word would be and mind you, i smell some bitching and back-stabbing. so basically the new discovery occupied my day in the office. other than that, yes i got a message from sasha asking me whether i wanted to catch a movie at the cinema. honestly i don't feel like cutting off my sleeping hours but then on the other side i always declined her invite. so this time i try to give it a go and to my surprised, it's confessions of a shopaholic. i agreed and she said i could bring another friend, so without hesitation i called juz as he must really watch this movie. and furthermore it's an offer that no one will resist - in the case of people, fashion and taste of real world.

so after work, i headed to the gardens and spent a moment there while waiting for juz to arrive. then as i met him and put my tote in his car we headed to the cocktail party held at chinoz. munched on some of the food, drank cocktails and fruit punch before heading to the cinema for the screening.

alright so now in to the review, and from here onwards it's dedicated to the movie only.

as you know, it's another fashion themed movie. can't really say that it's another version of the devil wears prada but then it's more to ugly betty/ a little of gossip girl put onto big screen. if you have been shopping for clothes, buying expensive items and for ever that confident in carrying yourself, then i assume this movie is for you.

i mean there;s no point for me to spoil the excitement to type out the storyline but then maybe just a brief one will do. it's about a girl who has been uncontrollably spending her money buying clothes and more clothes. being fashionable she aims to work in the renowned fashion magazine in the city. but then due to her carelessness, she got offered in a magazine company that deals with finance. upon working there, she put a twist in writing financial articles and instead she gave advice adding a fashion language into articles she wrote. so from there on, you must just watch and tell me whether it's good or not.

here is one of the early scene, showing the main actress rushing to purchase her gloves during a sale. it's crazy i tell you, the madness when things are on sale.

this scene, towards the end and she came to realize that it's not healthy to always spend a big sum of money in purchasing designer labels.

overall i would give this movie 4.2 out of 5. and from that movie, i learnt that sometimes we don't have to really buy expensive clothes to wear. it's all about observing and then turn it into something that we can afford. hence, when we mix and match correctly we will be as good as the rest. on a little generic side, dressing up really defines a person. as what they always say, people judge you by the outside and first impression is important. so, i don't have to continue and instead i will ask my friends to probably watch it.

well, this is for now. it's getting late and i am still not asleep. supposedly i am suppose to update but with different topic. but then this popped out and i updated on this instead. tomorrow another day for me and now i really feel obligated to dress for work. don't you ?

till then people, who are you wearing ?

When It's Suck On This !

2009-03-22T22:58:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, following or being followed ? that's the question that seems to be resurfacing into my life every time people simple assume. a dinner that made me realized that one must always be aware of the reality and must act smartly according to the situation. thank god, i am not the prey. so pray hard from now on.

yesterday seen me paying my monthly visit to pavilion. yes, the shopping hub in the city and what's more is that every time when i go i will usually hit 3 malls at one go. this is really fully utilizing the time and effort going there. seriously, it's more on me going there and to just look around. doesn't mean that i will buy, but it's good enough for me to see first and then decide later. couple of things caught my attention (need not to say, yes i am keeping it private) and for sure i hope that i can get those lovely things soon.

well anyway the while outing wasn't about me. it's more to a friend coming over and we went out just to get together. nothing much happen. and i meant it, nothing much. it's the same routine and every time when we meet, it's got to do with food. eat and feast, so the main meeting place for us was at sakae sushi at pavilion and that also we had to be separated as table there was big enough to accommodate us. well, at least one thing that i enjoyed the most was the great food there. eating like no one care.

after dinner, we hurriedly to klcc. some wanted to get magazine and some just wanted to get something in order to make the outing a little more meaningful. and when i said hurriedly, we walked extremely fast and faster than any runway models walk. it's so near and walking there was nothing. it's a norm and it's as if pavilion and klcc are connected. so that's klcc and after that we parted goodbye.

so after returning to pavilion again, the already separated us (4 of us) decided to have a drink and chill out a little but more as the night was still young. there were few places that we planned, bar in starhill gallery, bar at bukit bintang or that bistro right outside starhill gallery. we ended up in lecka-lecka. the gelato bistro in front of starhill gallery. we ordered smoothies and gelato. we just sat down and chatted for quite sometime before ending our outing.

summary of the lecka-lecka moment !

well, i think i am just going to stop right here. getting let now and tomorrow is monday. so i guess you all would probably know by then that tomorrow is another working day for me again. gladly, i am looking forward to it as if i don't then i will not be able to end the internship fast enough. despite of being delayed for 3 hours and i got myself nothing other than extra calories to myself, i am happy to just went out yesterday and being with friends that are distinctively with their personal style and attitude.

till then people, how can you copy this ?

***friends who went out with me, you just got to ask me about the tiltle of this entry !

Dining Into Adventure

2009-03-18T23:09:00.013+08:00

previously on this is my life, a whole new header - swirl, twirl and repetition. the 3rd change for this year, and the new header is bringing out the inner KARMA in me. it's something that is totally new to me, and i guess it's good to feel the change once a while.

there's nothing happening much to me for the past few days. the interning job is still an interning job, and being at home gave me the comfort feel as always. and sometimes i have to admit that i tend to get a little lazy when i am feeling overly comfortable. i will just drawn away from reality into my world of creativity and artistic feel. yes, i got so hooked up designing beautiful stuff till i neglect my housework. so, this explained my health situation and one thing for sure i am aware being lazy means being negative and being negative it will just make me feel even worst. no good !

taking a look on the slightly more positive side of my life, i am eager for that one particular moment or would i that day to come. yes, the last day of my internship program. about 15 more days, then i'll be packing up my bags and go back to my hometown again. it's another long break that i am looking for then after that i'll have to get serious and steadily complete the rest of my degree. it's fast and it's coming real soon. as much as i want this internship to end, i just can't tell what i am going to feel later. am i going to miss it, am i going to feel sad or am i going to feel nothing. happy or not, i am just glad to be here. where i am right now is a very well deserving place.

in this entry also, i must just post this matter up. it's creepy situation that i have encountered. and thanks to my friend here, i been given the truth the reality in this little game that i play. as long as you keep it close to the rules and regulations then nothing will happen. something bad can only happen if, you cheated. yes, cheating yourselves to get ahead in the game will make you lose everything in the game that you are in. in fact, in whatever game that you play there's this step by step instructions for you to follow in order for you to win. and if you don't follow and straight away jump to the finish line then you will miss out the details of the game.

this is overly too realistic for me to write it out. all i am saying is that i am so grateful to have seen it and playing games involve a lot of risks. my advice, play safe !

well, i guess that's all from me now. got really nothing to in the agency and sometimes i just have so many free time to just ponder and read on stuff that somehow indirect related to me but then i still find it intriguing to further read on it. reading, just expands your knowledge.

till then people, try to absorb all the positive energy that is available. with the current state of pollution to the environment, the good chi will soon be gone.

Care For Another Round ?

2009-03-15T23:19:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, looking at the workplace and about this girl in which i really wanted to help her but then somehow she avoided my kind gesture. hello, we are in the same college and do you think i will let you look not at the top ? honestly, i want to shine too. but then since you put it this way then i guess you are giving me the starlight and i accept it.

in life, it's all about cycle. a routine and something that we must do to ensure that we live on day by day. it's just a matter of doing it and repeating it. and as we do it, it becomes a norm in our live and it will be instilled till the day we part the world. now, you people would have already know that i, myself commit to quite a number of routines. every three days i would probably update my blog, every weekend i would do all the house chores including laundry and cleaning up my room, and monthly i would change the blog feel (which include the banner/ header and also the 'listen to this' section).

so as you can see now, i did all the three routines in one weekend. it started with me having the idea to design a banner that reflects my philosophy in life. a little much inspired by Kylie Minogue's album design i tried to do it and make it my own. i am happily proud of myself, and the outcome of the banner turned out to be not that bad. at least i know that i learnt something while doing the whole project thingy. from the photo-taking to the editing, it's a lesson worth undergoing.

other than spending the weekend indulging myself in art and craft, i got myself a really really good rest. as i have been sicked for like more than a week, the call to the doctor made me feel better now. taking medicine, drinking plentiful amount of water and getting enough sleep were the things that turned me well. i guess if i were to follow the routine in the first place, and according to the plan then i will not get sick and let the negativity affect me. but then it's ok now, i am feeling great now.

well with new cool songs and new pictures, i am glad to past this weekend. and now i can officially start counting down the very last day of my internship. i can't tell what's going to happen but then i am happy to have this experience. a little bit weird, uninspired in this entry ? perhaps it's time for me to do another routine of mine which is going to bed and sleep.

till then people, what is KARMA cycle to you ?

Just Another Girl

2009-03-12T21:35:00.005+08:00

previously on this is my life, a sum up on the two weekends that i happened to cross. and just like that, it reminded me of how fast time passes by. indeed, the two weekend were of two things on two different end and i guess that's why they call it a weekend.

if i am not mistaken, i think this would be the second entry for this week. and it feels like a while i posted anything. sometimes, and again when you feel very free time passes real slow. well, don't really care as tomorrow will be another great day install for me.

so as for this week and to be exact on tuesday, we submitted our assignments. apparently, interns in that agency need to complete the assignments as part of the learning process. i see it more on just filling up the plenty of free time at my desk. and one thing that kept me doing it was to impress. yes, doing the assignments well enough will just impress the manager and this will then make me a memorable intern in that agency.

so as we were passing up the assignments, i came to a little shocked to see how just that another girl acted. it's like a total high school scene again. and, it's not like the high school i went through. this one was even worst. how can one so last minute suddenly remembered that she have not written her name on the assignments. and what a dumb blond to think that submitting the assignments on loose sheets will make the content more memorable. what the f***. the way she stomp her feet, the way she made her noises. damn irritating and childish. you know, just like one friend of mine will say, simple just "no class". hang on. i don't want to continue this and i don't want to talk about the way she munch on her food. it's sad and i feel kind of embarrass. so just let her be. take care !

another girl on the other hand, has been a true goddess and diva. with the projection of class and excellent way of carrying herself, this lady i would say it's the complete opposite of that girl in the office. hang on, i can't compare this lady to that girl. this one diva is just simply the one and only one in the world.

go watch it !

yes, it's miss kylie minogue. i watched her latest concert recently and i enjoyed it to the fullest. every moment is just so wow-ing. with the nicely designed costumes, to the dance choreography to the arrangement of the songs. everything is heavenly done. i am glad to have watched it (not at the real concert) but then from screen.

well, i guess this is all from me now. a sort of short post on what i have been doing this week. positively i am feeling healthier and stronger to overcome the daily challenges. it's all about KARMA and sometimes i guess we just can't compare people to one another. they are just the way they are. just the way god planned it to be.

till then people, i am sick of it now !

***so sorry, i know it's time to change the banner again. i promise this weekend i will do it. been working very hard yet creatively on the new one. it's gonna be a really really KARMA header.

High And Weekends

2009-03-09T17:35:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, the starts of my all-in-one sickness. a look at workplace, in which now isn't that sickening anymore. i am starting to like the environment yet i just can't wait for another 4 more weeks. then, i'll happily going back to class attending lectures.

i am now behind time. i am supposed to blog about the two weekends that happened. for the past week, i have been sleeping early in the night and it cut down my free time to blog. yes, i think resting more is important considering the situation that i am facing. high in diseases, high in body temperature, high in workload, high in drama and just high in negativity everywhere i turned.

sometimes when we are feeling so weak, we tend to find an excuse to blame it all on the sickness that we are having. i know by thinking out loud like this will make my body weaker. so, i am determined to just think positive. as the only antibody that will help me fight the disease away is positive attitude. i am not going to complain that i am tired because of the flu, i am not going to say that i can't do this because of the cough and i won't stop thinking positive because of all these problems that i am facing. i'll give myself a week to let my body rest and soon i will get well soon.

so the two weekend before, i spent a quite a sum of money. i have been eating and buying non stop. so items were like a must and some were just to make me feel better. as for food, just can't let myself kept on having the same thing. this is why when i went for other types of food, it costed more on me. well, i am not regretting but then i am glad i pampered myself that way. it's not like i live like a king everyday. it's only once in a while, so it's ok.

so the last, and more recent weekend. the whole scene was completely different. i spent less money and i spent most of the time with my mother at my aunt's place. it's all about home cook food and good food. i finally got my new perfume, and i so glad that from today onwards i can finally wear it. then, i will definitely know that i'll smell nicer.

well, i guess this is all from me now. i don't want to continue further as each time i type there seems to be typo error. so got to stop here, watch a movie or two. then prep myself for tomorrow. counting down the internship, tomorrow it will be another good day for me.

till then people, water leaking ?

We Live Alone

2009-03-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, a second entry regarding the dances of malaysia. one, in which i am very proud of. the zapin, as you all can see is a little more energetic compared to the joget dance featured on january.

the house is full of negativity. that's one thing for now but then i am not going to let it drown my spirit away. i am feeling kind of sick. as much as i am always sick to look at certain people in the house, i am now officially sick. writing it down, i know will not make it go away but writing it down will remind me not to fall for it again. i don't really know whether it's me or it's just the weather to blame. i always get this 3 in 1 thing. the problem with me is that i am always down with flu, fever and sore throat all at once. it's a weird combination, but at least it come and go together.

it all started from yesterday. i shouldn't have eaten that kind of meal for lunch. i am aware of it, and i know that my body isn't that healthy to digest all those food. but then somehow, i still bought it and ate it. KARMA me, now i am feeling not so well despite the free fries that i got together with the lunch i bought. this is my, eating healthy is very important. always watch what you eat.

other than my self inflicted not so well moment,i am seriously considering that i shouldn't let whatever that is going on affect me. i used to write and remind myself to push away the negativity. but hello, what happen now ? write it out here, express in the blog and then that's it. just let KARMA take its course. if i believe in it so powerfully, then why must i be so sad by it. instead i can just laugh and then learn the good things from the negative things the project.

putting that aside, a little update on my reality. work so far has been a very wonderful place to be. i'll have to admit that although there were few mistakes that i have made, i still find going to work very interesting. going for this internship is for one thing, realization. it makes us realize things in life. it opened up our eyes, broaden our mind and train our brain. it's just a wonderful moment i would say.

well, i guess this is all from me now as i plan to make this entry short, simple and a little out of the conventional one. it's just a sick me, expressing out my thought once again. how i wish that all the viruses or bacteria could be spilled out just like that. well, going to bed now and tomorrow will be another beautiful day for me.

till then people, one prove to be a failure if they fail to follow the rules.

Dance Of February: Zapin

2009-02-28T21:32:00.001+08:00

previously on this is my life, living with some ungrateful people at times can be a real hell. sometimes people just don't know how to show their appreciation at the much needed time. people think that friendship is all what it seems, but then it takes a little more effort to be a friend of someone.

for this month, let us take a look on the dance called zapin.

the zapin dance is a folk dance that originated from the middle eastern and much of it is influenced from persia and arabia. it was then introduced here at around the fifteenth century. the dance at the beginning is only danced by male dancers. however as time passes by female counterpart also invovle in dancing the zapin.

the simple version of zapin is performed to the rhythm and the foot is extended out to the side on the last count. it can be done on the spot, travelling forwards and backwards or diagonally in the basic form.

the music for zapin comes from an ensemble of traditional instruments which include the gambus, marwas and the violin. there are no hard and fast rules as to the number of dancers that perform. however, because of the very interactive nature of this dance, it is usually performed in pairs.

the zapin dance is very much popular in the state of johor. the dancers can then play with each other, teasing, challenging and enjoying each others company.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. below would be a video of the zapin dance from youtube. enjoy the video and leave a comment if you want a song sample of zapin.

till then people, what is all about secret ?

Living Ungrateful

2009-02-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

previously on this is my life, a mid-term report on my situation at work. the progress and also the details of my daily working life. the past two weeks were indeed a great one and life in the house was like drama forever.

finally it is official that there are only 30 more working days left for me in the agency. i am feeling a little kind of hard-to-let-go. it's like really a wonderful experience working in the agency. although i am aware that i am only an intern, imagine what if this is for real. as in real working life ? i am glad and grateful to have chosen this path for me to walk.

well, unlike one bastard that i have came to know, i would say that he really knows how to show his gratification expressed only in a way that he would only interpret by himself. meanings that are not known to others. let me see, this would be the latest character to be installed in this blog. if you guys are my faithful follower then you people would have known that there are cheap slut, snake, bitch, she's not that mean, mother fucker and so on...playing the drama in this blog. without these characters, my blog is just nothing. so i would like to thank them for making this blog a damn colorful one. filled with all their stories.

so back to this ungrateful bastard, i don't know whether he realize it or not that i actually help him in a lot of ways ? not that i am asking to be rewarded or neither have i any intention in helping him. all i am hoping is for him to improve and treat people with great respect. after a few rounds of observation, i have seen him becoming really cocky, rude and lame. the way he talked to people sometimes it can even destroy the heart of the listener.

yes, this bastard thought that he is so damn smart and better than everyone else in the world. but hello, mister you are just the same person that just don't want to make the change. you want to remain like this ? becoming a failure again ? then go ahead. it's not like you are very good, academically but at least try to be a useful person by acting more politely.

i always believe that, being humble really helps. as much as how powerful or knowledgeable you are, it's good for us to know when is the time to be pretty down to earth. we must know how to balance it out. this bastard, indeed showed me many ungrateful reactions. am i pissed by it ? yes obviously, let me just tell you people what he did to me:

i borrowed him my textbook. being a lazy person i don't think so he got read it.
i helped him in the assignment but then now he has become into a boastful beast.
i commented him as he was being out of the usual him, he in turn critic me back.

so what i did was that, i took back the texbook from because i think it would be safer if i keep it to myself. then i made a promise not to help this bastard anymore. i just want to see him fail again, as he himself already such a negative person. and all i am seeing from him are negative chis surrounding him

please help me make a pork chop out of this pig. roast it, people !

well, i guess this is all from me now. i really need to talk to someone before i go to bed. since there's no one wants to hear me out, i expressed it all out in this entry. supposedly, this entry is going to be something else. i think i'll update again tomorrow. feeling really sleepy now.

till then people, i think he is going to miss the ship again this semester !

Remember, When...

2009-02-25T20:45:00.004+08:00

previously on this is my life, hooking on something will drive one into insanity. why must one be so overly obsessed ? to what level you will be obsessed of something. now, take a moment and think whether to be obsessed is a good thing or a bad thing.

before i begin, did i mentioned that the company organized a trip or would i say a short visit to the color separation company and also to the printing plant ? somehow, i see the whole thing very benefiting. honestly, i never been to that kind of places before therefore i treat as something very interesting. i think we might need to write up a report regarding the visit. anyway, i finished up one report of it and left one more. maybe will get it done once i complete the assignments given.

work now not that boring anymore. since the giving out of the assignments, the interns can fill up their free time by completing 8 series of questions. each testing on our creativity, imagination, communication skills and also knowledge that we have learnt in our related field. as for the assignments, same thing here. completed 4 out of 8 questions today. one of it being done yesterday. i am proud and happy to see how well i really expressed myself out, writing the assignments. glad to be given the chance to see, how well i can go with my capability.

other than that, i am now just going to ignore whatever negative things in the agency. if certain people wants to be rude, mean and unfriendly, then i'll just let them go ahead. let them act in this way. just like what i used to tell myself last time, i pity them for being so negative. i don't want to elaborate more on one staff there. all i can do is to pray to my KARMA god, and may she be cured from the bad sour mood face of hers. once she is cured, then she can thank me (although i don't wish to be thanked). i will just help her, as helping is a good thing.

the past weekend, other seeing obsession everywhere. i have been at home doing the usual stuff. i went out in saturday, right before the post of obsession being written. bought myself a black basic rib scarf (which i will probably fashion it in the near future). happy with it, as the scarf is really cheap and it is not just a piece of cloth.

the past few days has been raining like cats and dogs. every time, when i get out of the office it rained. i've been soaking wet (not that wet) when i reached home. nice weather, as the past week i complained about being hot and sweaty. now the weather is just cold and comfy. easier for me to fall asleep at night. well, just the way i like it.

so, before i end today's entry. remember last time, during our primary school time. we have like this writing exercise book for english language. our teacher would asked us to write lines and lines of phrases to help us improve on our handwriting. then he or she will then use the ruler and check and see whether we have written it neatly or not. we have to make sure that when we write, it will be in a straight line. the red and blue lines will guide us during the process. well, below is the example.

children in school should be taught to write this also. i wonder what grade i'll get.

well, this is all from me now. going to watch a movie now and then do a little of the house chores. then i'll just lie down and get my well deserve rest. it's been a long day.

till then people, have you write it down ?

Obsession

2009-02-22T18:53:00.003+08:00

previously on this is my life, at home or at work. these are the two different scene, in which totally opened up my eyes regarding the human race. two incidents that occurred will definitely leave me pondering, why in life such people can be just like that.

the past week has been a busy week for me. i guess after voicing out whatever that's been kept in my heart seems to solve the problem. i am been given more work to do as compared to last time (the first month of my internship) and being busy also means that time passes real fast in the agency. i like it this way and the challenges seems to make me learn something out of it. putting work a side, let me just write on the recent days that i happened to cross.

one thing about obsession is that it turns one into a horrible creature. yes, people will get crazy when they are obsessed. it's like you wanting it so badly, you will just ignore your judgment and go for whatever your desire wanted. this is so true when i got to see how a crazy little obsession changed a person. they will do things that might hurt others, sabotaging and worst still being completely cold. obsession is something to avoid. in this very encrypted blog, i must say that it was a good thing for me to see all of that.

so, why can one be so obsessed ? is it because they just want to show off or simply because they want to make a statement. a statement to prove that they have a right to be obsessed of something. and will money turn one into being an obsessed-freak ? there's a lot to say about this one word phrase. somehow, i must admit that i am also obsess of certain things. but then must it be so obvious until people can see it ? you can be obsessed and at the same time keeping it very low key so that people will not notice it. i have seen and now still seeing that how people deal with their obsession. i know it's not good to look at it, but then it just make me want to analyze more. why they became obsessed.

well, i think this is all for now. a little very meaningless entry from me. it's just something that i must write to indicate that something out of the norm happened and i must try to remember it so that i will not fall into becoming one of the obsession-freak.

till then people, i know what you did to the button !