B'day Me (Part 1)

previously on this is my life, the flow of creativity somehow got lost on its way to my brain. it was as if something is blocking it from coming to me. at one moment, felt panicked and the other moment just too down to do anything.


so, i am finally posting up my birthday entry. but then to make it a little more special, i will try to make it into few entries as cramping everything into this entry will make it not so special anymore. as you can see, this year my birthday was a little different. it was like a 3-day celebration that started on the eve, actual birthday and a day after. i am just so blessed. initially i have though the other way round, perhaps only closest friends will only surprised me but then in the end i was wrong.

it all started with the wish. as they said, make a wish before you blow the candle. we wished for the best every time we close our eyes and visualize on the dream that we wished. at times, we taught that it will come to us naturally and as willingly as possible. after all, there's always the phrase "dream come true" and does that mean we will have a happily ever after life. the answer, i think it's obvious that it's a no.

i believe that having to wish on that dream of ours, served as a goal. something to motivate us to achieve it in the future. without the dream as our guidance, we might lose focus and eventually we might forget on why inn the first place we are doing the things that we are doing right now. having a dream is easy, making a wish is easier and trust me to achieve it, definitely not through the easiest way round.

there comes a time when we will have to decide and weigh the options. to plan out all the actions that we are going to commit and perhaps list out all the possibilities if we were to decide on that action. whatever it is, we must always be aware to take life as a whole and not see it like a pieces of puzzle. as much as puzzles complete the big picture, failing in seeing life as a big picture might causes us to make regretful mistakes.

always the big dream. everybody dreamed of being successful. how do we achieve that ? taking the small steps, taking the big risk, having to suffer now or just plainly let nature takes its course. as much as we would love to avoid all those frustrating problems, life is not that easy as 1, 2 and 3. if everything were to be calculated out in life, then i assume every one will have an easy life.

well i think that's all for now. a slice of my dream and what's underneath the dream. layer and layers of decisions, problems and dilemma affecting me right now. as they said, the older you go, the wiser and mature you will be. guess, this particular moment of my life right now is having me to take a careful look into my future planning. damn tough for my age.

till then people, officially next week onwards it will be all about decisions.

Mental Block

previously on this is my life, changed the banner and changed the songs. another monthly make over that indicated that we are now indeed at the mere ending months for the year 2009.

i wonder what's happening to me right now. the mental block that i am having right now somehow manage to block the creativity from flowing into me. one day, and there's no progress to the artwork and to make it worst, now i am hit by a moment of serious thinking/evaluating/considering on certain matter in life. it's just so hard, knowing that the semester is about to end and yet i am still not making things work according to what i planned.

this and that, here and there. i am very lost and don't know what to do. if only there's a book to all the answers to my life then my life would be as light as a feather would be. as much as i am pretty aware that stress/burdens will make one stronger in making decisions in life, too much of it can be very hurtful if you don't know how to handle it.

i know this entry suppose to be above my birthday and how i celebrated it. that entry can wait as i just need to express this before i got to bed. so how now ?

well, i think i'll just sleep on the creative ideas and as for the other problem i guess i'll just have to talk it out with someone else.

till then, always plan before act !

Colour Me Now

previously on this is my life, another month another dance. last entry marked the end of october 2009. randai was being featured and the fast rhythmic tempo, martial art infuses dance no doubt can be popularized even more as this dance is little known by the people.

it's november now. am i suppose to start panicking right now ? despite all the things that i am going through, i know that in 2 months time we will bid goodbye to the year 2009 and moving forward to the year 2010. just a moment ago i was chatting with my friend, saying that a lot of considerations needed to be taken in. so many and yet a limited time for me to think and evaluate about it.

whatever it is, one good news would be that my submission date for my dissertation has been postponed. now that i got more time to do, i think i can make the whole thing actually work. i must put in more effort, love and i must be liking what i am doing. if not, it will just not turn out the way that it supposed to be. i can see, some people just plainly copying their dissertation from others and some copying and yet said that it's their original work. it's just so weird to see most of them doing sort of similar topic/title. oh my, where is the creativity and the sense of originality ? can't they come up something that is appropriately nice reflecting their personality ?

i don't want to say anything more on this. at the moment, the only concern that i have is to keep me inspired all month long so that i can happily complete my thesis. then, i will slowly ponder on the things that i will be facing in the future.

well, that's all for now. a little short entry, just to indicate that i have once again changed the banner of my blog. also added in new song, which i found it to be very positive indeed. going to just continue with my stuff right now.

till then people, the great escape ?

Dance of October: Randai

previously on this is my life, a lot of copying can be seen going around here. fake imitation, not as good as the original one being produced. and the saddest part was that no one dare to acknowledge, which lead us to where are the honesty and sincerity.


for this month let us take a look on the dance called randai.

randai is a folk theater tradition of the minangkabau ethic group which infuses music, singing, dance and martial art (silat). this dance is usually performed for traditional ceremonies and festivals. normally, complex stories may span a number of nights.

performed as a group, this dance is being danced in a circular shape to achieve an equality and unity between audience members and the performers. randai performances are a synthesis of alternating martial arts dances, songs and acted scenes.

randai originated early in the 20th century out of fusion of local martial arts, story telling and other performance traditions. this dance is popularised in negri sembilan.


as to this dance, the dancers will usually beat on their pants (stretched) like a drum, to generate energetic rhythm.

so this is it, a short description about Malaysia's cultural dance. enjoy the video below of the dance randai from youtube and drop by a comment for song sample of this dance.

till then people, what a wonderful life. have you decided on the next idol ?

Simon Says

previously on this is my life, a blast holiday. that's all i can say about my just ended semester break.

coming back here and once again, another short semester (my final one) seems to be really intense, very intense ! everything seems to be happening so fast till there's a moment i just stop and not do anything thinking that there's still plenty of time left for me to complete what i am supposed to do this semester. one group assignment and one dissertation to be completed in a month's time. i know i can do it, but now it's just the matter of when. when will my inspiration come and where can i find it. without waiting for that, i just bare in mind that it's just a matter of organizing the things carefully, manage it well, then finally just do some editing to it and at last i am finished.

some people can still not do anything, some people will do thing you do and some people already do things more than what accomplished. so am i going to be pressured by all those three categories of people or just sit back and enjoy the remaining five weeks of studies and live it to the fullest. watch the show and wait for the finale ?

well, i guess i am just too sleepy to continue with this entry. all i need to promise my self is to just get it done, present it with a touch of class and then be thankful that i will be finishing my studies soon. immediately right after this, i am just going to sleep and by the time i am awake i will continue working on my papers.

relax or serious ? work harder or more effort ? to smile or laugh ? close one eye and let it be or continue to observe with another eye ? i am just "not" so "stress" right now !

till then people, trendsetter anyone or would you rather play simon says ?


*that's the recent picture that i took. sometimes it will help by just starring at your own picture.